gunfighterout256
Happy new year
Alex_Morgan_Westerns
gunfighterout256
I am sorry for bothering you too much. My name is William H Bonney aka Billy the Kid
gunfighterout256
Please feel free to message me on my message board. Please check out my stories they are not very good.
https://www.wattpad.com/story/386152269?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_writing&wp_page=create&wp_uname=gunfighterout256
This is a new story that I am working on
gunfighterout256
Howdy
Alex_Morgan_Westerns
In the spirit of Halloween, I have released my annual RDR2 Halloween special, and this year it's not a one-shot! It's a satirical take on The Raven by Edgar Allen Poe, and I had so much fun writing it! It's posted as the latest chapter in Traveler Trilogy One-shots like in years past, but it has nothing to do with that story. The title of the poem is "The Cowboah" and I may be biased, but I find it hilarious. I'll put a link to it below. Happy Halloween!
~Alex
https://www.wattpad.com/1487348594-traveler-trilogy-one-shots-the-cowboah-halloween
Alex_Morgan_Westerns
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Guys I'm struggling.
Work has been a lot more busy for me this year so I haven't had near as much time to write as in years past, and on top of that I think I've written myself into a corner with Cowboys and Angels, and I'm also starting to worry that it's getting too long and boring, and that Jenny is starting to annoy you all.
I have seasonal depression, too. I'm on meds for it but they don't always fix the problem entirely and I'm going through a bout of that now that the weather is getting cooler and the days are getting shorter. I'm fucking homesick for Texas, my writing lately has been a bunch of soulless shit, and my pride in it is plummeting. I'm trying to keep up with weekly updates, but it's extremely hard when I'm starting to really hate the story and be extremely critical of the way I write.
The worst part is I don't have a damn clue how to fix it without taking another break from writing, which I don't want to do. I WANT to write, just not C&A at the moment. I want to write another short story or another chapter of Runaway Train. The issue then becomes, though, that my self esteem as a writer has taken a massive hit as well.
I started writing as early as the sixth grade. It was complete shit, but it was words on paper. I kept writing through high school, but instead of encouraging me, my ass of a mother decided to make sure I knew I was a horrible writer who would never be published. There was screaming and yelling and it was very traumatic for me. I've tried my hardest to improve as a writer since then, but it's hard. I still hear my mother's voice all the time when I get like this, yelling at me that I'm not that good a writer, and I never will be.
(More in comments below. I ran out of characters)
Eyegoo08
@Alex_Morgan_Westerns you take care of you first and foremost. I think the writing is fine. I know the struggle. Writing a Sean story and it has taken me a minute to. You take your time find your breath and write when you can. I will be there for the end of the story c:
NotherUnoriginalName
@ Alex_Morgan_Westerns i read it all thoroughly, took me 20 minutes... and lord almighty, take ALL the time you want, don't pressure yourself, hell even take a break, your well-being is very valuable, more valuable than words in my book even. Take care
Alex_Morgan_Westerns
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People like to say that writers should write only for themselves, and to some extent that's good advice, but I write because I want to create something for other people to enjoy. I want to share western culture with people who might not otherwise get to experience it, because the American West is my favorite place on Earth.
I think I've been failing somewhat at that lately. I read what I've written lately and it's boring and flat and plain, and I think it's because my heart hasn't been in it. Coupled with my depression, this has made me fucking exhausted. I broke down crying on my way to work this morning because I'm just so tired and depressed, and I miss horses and the desert and endless, blue skies. I feel like Bilbo Baggins at the beginning of Lord of the Rings, like butter scraped over too much bread. I want to see mountains again, but I just feel trapped where I am, and it's affecting my ability to be creative.
All this to say I'm so sorry but I don't think I'm capable of releasing another chapter of C&A this week. I'll try, but I probably won't. I need to work on other projects for my own sanity and for the sake of my mental health. Sorry for how long this is getting, too. Hopefully things will get better soon. You all deserve so much better than I'm capable of at the moment, and it's not fair to you to rush out something that's been half-ass written with no joy. I'm not fishing for compliments and I don't want pity. I just want you all to understand where I'm coming from and why things have been sort of erratic with my update schedule lately.
Take care, all!
~Alex
Alex_Morgan_Westerns
You guys aren't gonna believe this but my laptop is broken. AND my desktop is broken. AND my Xbox too. That's why no updates occurred Friday. My phone is literally the only way I can access the Internet now and I can't write on my phone because the formatting will be wrong and I'm more comfortable with a keyboard.
I'm hoping things will be resolved in time for this Friday, but if I miss another update, please don't be mad! I'm trying, guys. I really am.
NotherUnoriginalName
@ Alex_Morgan_Westerns oh this sucks, but that's tech for you, sometimes it works, sometimes it decides to fvck with you, you never know really. I'm sure you'll get it resolved/fixed
Alex_Morgan_Westerns
@goodbyelisahoney I can't even game. It's so frustrating haha. I'm having to write on my work computer, but this site is blocked on it. Not sure why technology has decided to hate me at the moment, but maybe it's God telling me to go touch grass or something.
goodbyelisahoney
@Alex_Morgan_Westerns eep oh no! sorry to hear your tech isn't cooperating with you. I hope you get a fix soon <3
Alex_Morgan_Westerns
Just posted the prologue of the Bonnie MacFarlane X John thing I keep talking about! If you liked Eva In Peril, you'll probably like this one too because it's another "what-if" style story based on the events of RDR1, although I actually maade an outline for it. It would mean the world if you would take a look and let me know what you think! There's no update schedule for this one, and I'm writing as I get the motivation to. It'll also be my main summer project in addition to the short story I just published, so get hyped!
https://www.wattpad.com/story/370001214-runaway-train-rdr1-john-marston
NotherUnoriginalName
@ Alex_Morgan_Westerns you got it man, your stories bright me back to red dead 1 on my xbox 360
Alex_Morgan_Westerns
You guys! I FINALLY finished that short story I've been working on in bits and pieces here and there for months now. It's the first in my new anthology of original short stories that I'm calling "Cowboy Tales: Stories of the Old West." I'm sooooo proud if it, so if you like what I write, please go give it a look and let me know what you think! It would really make me happy. I've left a link to the book below. The cover is a work in progess, but everything else should be good to go.
https://www.wattpad.com/story/369431571-cowboy-tales-short-stories-of-the-west
Alex_Morgan_Westerns
Currently toying with an idea for a story to work on this summer (in addition to all the other ones I've got ideas for) to do a sort of short novella involving the kids from The Breakfast Club as adults. Idk. I just finished rewatching the movie and it got my creative juices flowing. Thoughts? It's a very different sort of story from what I normally do.