Melpomene

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I just applied for an invitation on ao3! They said that at around 12/19 I'll get an invitation to create an account!

My new Fantasy One-Shot is called 'Sirensong'.
          
          "A haunting melody drifted from the forest, luring travelers in. The siren disappeared under the murky lake water, ready for another meal."

I've started a Fantasy One-Shot collection, I just published the first story in it. Keep in mind that I was sleep deprived when I wrote it.
          
          Please do read it!

I'm going to stop writing MHA stories, maybe I'll go into fantasy? idk, but I'm going to publish the two discontinued stories.
          
          I was going to try and continue them sometime, but I've tried and can't so I give up.
          
          I'll create the covers first.

Sorry I just need to vent a little- This will be very messy because I'm just writing down what I'm feeling!
          
          Here's the thing: I love romance. Correction, I LOVED romance. I used to love love, in the simplest form. I still do, but I can't appreciate it anymore.
          
          I'm aroace, more specifically abroromantic and abrosexual, which means I want what I'll never get.
          
          It took me so long to accept that this is what I am, and everyday I still hope that I'm wrong, that I CAN fall in love and I'm just wrong.
          
          Because every time I read romance or smut, I'm reminded of something that I'll never get. That I'll never experience.
          
          It feels like a punch in the gut.
          
          But there's still a part of me that loves romance, so they're constantly fighting. Like wrestlers (sorry, I just don't take my emotions seriously). I hate and love it at the same time. 
          
          It's hurting me but I can't stop.
          
          This is also the first vent that I've ever done anywhere, I just tend to bottle up my emotions because making myself vulnerable has only led to pain for me.
          
          But here I am, because I feel like I'm going to explode. I can't keep everything in me all the time and I need to be vulnerable for once. 
          
          I can't do this anymore.
          I can't do anything.
          I just want to die.
          I want to stop.
          Stop everything.
          
          I've always wanted a storybook romance, the stuff you see in romance novels. In fairy tales. In the Disney movies I was raised on.
          
          Whether it was with a man, a woman, both, or neither, I just WANTED IT. But now I'll never get it.
          
          Now I'll never feel what I've wanted since I was a child.
          
          I want it SO FUCKING BAD but I'll never get it, and I'm at the point where I'm so FUCKING MAD about it.
          
          I'm not even going to look this over. I don't care if no one sees it, or if they just don't care. I just need this.
          
          I can't anymore.
          I just can't.
          
          My parents are conservative. I don't feel like I belong in the queer community. I don't belong.
          
          I don't want to be aroace.
          
          Everything would be so much easier if I just...died.

Bad News: I'm not hyperfixiating anymore, so it's going to be harder to write MHA stories, if I continue to. I might just leave Wattpad, there's not a lot of time for it in my busy life.
          
          This isn't a confirmation, it's just that writing is going to be slower moving forward.

Mina unsheathed her sword. She circled Katsuki like a shark, ready to attack. She was a fellow soldier of the Silver Legion, and had trained alongside Katsuki since they had both joined.
          
          ✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧
          
          I wrote another Fantasy AU one-shot, and I still feel like there's so much more I could do with it.
          
          Read The Silver Legion in my one-shot collection!

Outside the cabin, the wind howled through the trees, while inside, the fire was nearly out. It was a harsh winter, and the town was on the brink of death.
          
          ✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧
          
          I wrote a new one-shot, and it's a fantasy AU!
          
          I feel like I've just barely tapped into the world, plus I just adored writing something fantasy. Maybe I'll do more fantasy aus in the future.
          
          Read Ruthless Winter in my one-shot collection!

I have a new one-shot!
          
          This one was more of a experiment to see if a pirate au would work, and I think it might, but it's published in my one-shot collection