Yumi

I found out that you can have a family member be paid to become your caregiver full time. My husband and I have decided to go that route due to my physical conditions and impairments wnd the fact im a high risk patient who needs constant monitoring. 
          
          My husband is fine with caring for me and actually enjoys the thought of always being home with me. He works full time currently and finds it hard to care for me. Its a long process but so was my disability application I won. Since I have medicaid im approved for this. Im not sure about other states though. 

Imagine taking a bunch of mental health pills and endlessly falling asleep. Your days are short and sometimes they are nightmares. 
          
          That is the case for me. My psychiatrist bumped up my medicine a week ago and ive been falling asleep for long periods of time. I took a nap just know at 5pm, its 8:50pm now. Almost 4 fucking hours.
          
          You know how you dream about the things you see? Every dream i have overwatch is involved with it. Level 45 on Juno man. I beat the battle pass in 5 days. I have an addiction. I grind endlessly on it and get excited for Tuesdays when they change the entire shop. I had hoped they wouldve added another Juno skin this time but they didnt. But I bought the kiriko rain skin. I play her often as well. Im also pretty good at lifeweaver. But Juno is my main and my aim is 89% accurate. The highest is 100% for me and my lowest is 39%. I have her mythic gun and skin. 
          
          I am so tired and hungry despite eating dinner. 

Its been half a year since ive been married. Time feels like its going too fast. I guess the older we get the more busier we get. I wouldve never guessed years ago that my husband would ever marry me. I always liked him back in 9th grade but I left those feelings aside after two girls told me he was only into this other girl. Almost 2 years ago my husband reached out to me and we went on our first date. A month later we started dating. And 3 months in we got engaged. We both moved fast and our relationship has always been like that. We knew we wanted to be together forever. We also knew my medical conditions. We didn't know how much time we had. And so we married a few months earlier than expected. The only bad thing about marriage IS CHANGING YOUR LAST NAME AT THE PHARAMACY, DOCTORS OFFICES, AND INSURANCE CARDS. Half a year later and I still cant get the right last name on my medicaid card. But other than that ive been happy in my marriage. I think hes the only person who has seen me at my fucking worst in all bad ways and still loves me and forgives me. Im stubborn and I hate that about myself. But he puts up with me and takes care of me, who is disabled physically and mentally and won disability. Hes my caregiver, my biggest supporter and a fellow Christian. I hope we continue to prosper. Life is so short. 

Im level 32 on Juno on overwatch, level 25 for lifeweaver and level 20 for Kiriko.
          
          I plan on getting Juno to level 40. I already have her mythic skin but I dont have her mythic gun. I also want to get lifeweavers mythic as well. I have to pick one. Im already on the 4th tier of the battle pass. 
          
          I love Juno's personality because she reminds me of myself in a lot of ways. I like lifeweaver because hes hot and Kiriko for her healing. I love lifeweavers mechanics and I find him easy to play as. Juno is a bit harder for aim but ive gotten better. Kiriko is just straight no aim and barely any aim for her daggers. 
          
          I wont get kirikos mythic because its ugly as hell. And I got a nice skin for lifeweaver in the battle pass. Im not sure what I'll do with my mythic this season. 

We had:
          
          - Ren
          - Sol
          - Heugo 
          - Enox
          - Dane
          - G#
          - Mr. Crawling 
          - Mr. Scarletella 
          
          Now we have:
          
          - Mauga 
          - Lifeweaver aka Narin
          
          Between lifeweaver and Mauga id pick Mauga. 

New book coming out soon! Its a Testimonial from someone who has severe mental conditions and is a Christian. Not a lot of Christians talk about severe mental health conditions. I want to be someone who can share the intense struggles of life. I did write a book about Illness anxiety disorder and how I deal with it. I want to spread awareness before I die. I want to be known for my advocacy of mental health! 

Dyed my hair today to ginger! It oddly looks great on me!

Ive got an overwatch addiction rn. I need to touch some grass man. 

Well, it seems the cycle continues.
          
          We had Ren, We had Sol, We had Heugo, We had Dane, We had Enox, We had Pierrot, We had Mr. Crawling...Now give it up for...
          
          Mr. Scarletella. 
          
          Yes hes from the same game as Mr. Crawling. I didnt really get myself invested in him and now I am. I hate myself sometimes man. I really enjoy his character. Plus hes fun to draw. This is the 8th visual novel character ive obsessed over within the last 5 months. Not even half a year. Its insane. I might post some of my art I have done for some of these characters even if the art is ass. 

You wont believe this but..
          
          We had Ren, we had Sol, we had Heugo, we had Enox, we had Dane, we even had Pierrot. 
          
          Now...
          
          Now we have Mr. Crawling from Homicipher. 
          
          Ive been watching gameplay of it so far and its been hard to get into. Mostly because the story progresses as you go. You dont get an immediate backstory. Its kinda like the backrooms and youre trying to learn the language of the monsters and shit that are attacking you or communicating with you. 
          
          Mr. Crawls is my favorite so far as well as Mr. Hood.  Ive watched so many visual novels. This is my sixth one so far.