AnAlienFromJupiter

The good news is that I've finally written the first chapter of "Still Life".
          
          The not so good news is that it currently sits at 3400± words (⁠ب⁠_⁠ب⁠)
          Makes you realise you are more fluent in Yapanese than you gave yourself credit for. Guess I have a lot to say, huh?

What the hellie did I miss... also no Smut... my heart--- I live off of ts.

"How much red could a man swim in before it looked like he had poor menstruation practices?"
          
          And I think that's why it's important to poopy draft your fics at midnight ❤️

Nah why is the Ranpo smut book ranked #1 in #bsdsmut??! Y'all ಠ⁠︵⁠ಠ
          
          Not to mention it's one of those pieces I cringe at every time I come across it. I gave the people what they wanted, but at what cost (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠)
          
          Before you ask, I was vanity searching my alternative account and appreciating a period of my life where I could still draw without wanting to bash my head against the wall (school did me so dirty).
          
          But anyway, at this point I'm not sure if "Still Life" will ever be more than a prologue...
          I would genuinely ask "Do you wanna see it?" and publish it, but I'm the kind of person who has to have written every chapter before I start publishing because what if I change some things later on? What if what I wrote before could've been written differently for leeway of later chapters?
          
          It goes back to how much I struggle with perfection. As much as I can "poopy draft" chapter 1 and anything after, I'm not writing the true meat of what I want to write from the get-go... wdym you can't live in my head and have context about what happens 'till that point? I've got a whole world up in here, hop in — free admission and snacks. 
          
          Still, it's been far too long, and y'all deserve some bænger lines from the prologue. Here they are in order of appearance:
          
          “Immortality is a vanity project when beauty is found in the rot.”
          
          "To resist decay is to deny the very essence of life."
          
          "The dead do not need saving, he told you, brushing dirt off your fingers. The dead do not need saving because they are already perfect."
          
          Wow so emo.
          You're welcome. Don't say Jupiter doesn't do nice things for you </3

Have I been writing? No. I'm a failure as a fanfic author right now. But I'll work on it. Eventually. Any day now...
          
          I'm not a sci-fi enjoyer generally — mostly because I'm a thicky thicky dumb dumb when it comes to science — but Project Hail Mary made me cry so much. I haven't cried with a movie like that since The Peanuts movie (yes, the esnupi movie) and Book of Life. I've probably just ruined so many people's perception of me... I'm not a crybaby but heck do I look like it with the most unexpected movies ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ
          
          Anyway, I'm reading the book because I want to suffer some more, and right now I feel like a space expert. NASA wants me, trust. Ask me anything.
          
          All that to say that I'm only half of a Hamilton right now. He's been reading and writing; I clearly haven't.
          Will "Still Life" ever become more than a series of scenarios and analysis I daydream about before sleep? Maybe not. Maybe yes. Maybe maybe.
          
          PS. Did they remove the "socials" tab from the notifications bar that no one asked for and everyone hated...? Huzzah!
          
          PPS. Just remembered this cringe moment when I was 11, roughly year 7, where our first homework in religious studies was to write about what we did in our spare time. 11yo Jupiter deadass wrote that she created scenarios in her head (and worst of all, she drew herself as an anime girl). I was cringe but I was free.
          
          Do with everything you've learned about me what you will (⁠｡⁠･⁠ω⁠･⁠｡⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠♡

AO3 account has FINALLY been secured •́⁠ ⁠ ⁠‿⁠ ⁠,⁠•̀
          Name: Alien_fromJupiter
          
          I will transfer "Bamboo Grove" within the next week. 
          
          Now let a boomer figure out how to operate all the little buttons in her own time. I don't even know how to change the profile picture...

I need to stop writing at silly o'clock because what the heck is "romance in its priest form"???? ಠಿ⁠_⁠ಠ

Valentine's Day is in a few days, and I still don't understand the whole hEaD oVeR hEeLs phrase.
          
          I've always imagined it's someone doing some extreme flexibility routine where they touch their shoulders with their feet... and it's been my image of what people look like when they're in love for years.
          
          Being in love looks painful.
          
          Yikes.

TL;DR: AO3 account, yay or nay?
          
          Just stumbled across some covers I made — some that didn't make the cut, others that were here before I changed them. Looking back at the "Prey & Predator" one especially makes me so sad. IT'S SO UGLY! 
          
          Thank God for "Chrysanthemum Garden" whose first cover is the final cover and the reason I changed all others. Hate the way it's written, but purple cover go weee
          
          On that note, oh how I wish I could rewind and make some very needed adjustments on every book before "Bamboo Grove"... Maybe it's my distaste for first-person narrative, maybe it's how much I hated the years in which I wrote those stories in... or maybe it's Maybelline ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ
          
          I definitely should set up an AO3 account because I know that it's generally favoured by fanfic readers, but the UI makes me cry... Plus, I'd probably REWRITE everything before "Bamboo Grove", which is definitely a good idea, but it would also take time... but it might get me writing constantly...
          
          (If you couldn't tell, I'm actually in love with "Bamboo Grove"... I've reread it at least twice... Is this a vanity project...?)

"I'm a writer," I say as the government sends armed forces to ensure I'm not planning something sketchy...
          
          I should definitely make better use of incognito mode ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ