AndersonHartz
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Yet, I did stop writing stories many months ago. I always thought I would keep on writing and writing, but I guess I was wrong. The stories are things I wish would happen, "Why Can't You Be Mine" is my favorite of them all. It has things in their that show how I actually felt about a person, yet she doesn't exist anymore. Now she's just an embodiment of who she was, I really wish I could see her smile like that again, but it won't happen. Just like I said in my last one, no ones gonna read this anyways so why bother not letting somethings out. Today May 9th, 2016, I wish I did more things today other than keeping quiet about everything. I wish I could dance like my sister, but I'll never be as great, as talented, or as well educated as her. My friends are kind of nice, I wish I could hang out with Theatre students though, they make me feel apart of a family I never had before. Most of them are leaving, but It's okay everything's okay. Even when shit goes wrong and bad things happen it's okay. Honestly I can't trust anyone with anything anymore, I can only trust myself because I can't feel any emotion anymore. I haven't felt real emotions since that person left me in ruins. I'm building back up though becoming stronger in my mind than in my physical state. I shall live on and do more great things, but I won't be able to do the things I wish I could do. My life is just something I planned out and things that I wish I could go aren't in the plans, I try to make them apart of it, but it never works out. I shall sleep now even if it is early, but I feel like I have more to say, yet, I don't. I wish I can write down what I actually feel, but then it'll go back to ruins. Why ruin my life again for something so simple.
