And another thing that surprised me, is that i always thought i can't let myself get involved with someone else when deep down i know I'm still hurt in some ways. But my view changed? Surprisingly, being shown love again, in a healthy secure amount was the most healing thing ever.
I don't know if that's what i had to witness again for me to finally get on my feet again? To get some of the love I've given to others back.
I know it risks getting hurt again, but I've learned so much to protect myself from that, and i deserve to be happy. I'm not gonna ruin it for myself
It's so sad how this place once was my safe sanctuary, where i spent most of my time. Where i turned to when I'm sad, and now it's just .. empty, everyone left, and somehow I'm still here. It feels hollow, and cold.
Not necessarily bad, it served it's time, but I'll always get that bittersweet feeling when i think about it.