this message may be offensive
No one reads this things so here I go.
I can't give anymore... I tried to be enough. I give you the best i got. Materials and cleaning, toxics through my nose. I get on my knees and make it squeaky clean just so that when you get home you don't tell at me. I starve until dinner because you tell me I'm fat,telling me that I eat too much. I have someone who I care about and my time with the is limited and shorted out. I'm sorry I am a disappointment, and didn't exceed your expectations. I'm sorry that every time I try to explain who am I you just turn the blame. Is it so difficult to understand that I don't only like a boy or a man? Is it so difficult to understand that I like to dress like a man because of what I have gone through before. I have been raped,abused,controlled, manipulated and much more but it doesn't mean that I use my past as an excuse to be an ass. I understand you have conditions, I have em too. I'm a cutting survivor and proud sister that raised a little brother at five. I am a teen that's trying to express who they are. If I wanna dye my hair it should be fine, if I want to draw anime it's not wrong. I'm not religious inclined and I'm sorry that I don't want to believe on what you are forcing me to. Please understand that after all this I still call you mom. I understand you don't love me because you didn't birth me and it's fine... "I'm okay" I say everyday for you to just look away. You call me weak at the end of the week because you figured out of my insecurities. You fat shame me and tell me to change, to look more like a girl because that's what you think. I love man's clothing and it stays that way.
Please...just let me be.