Archer

"I'm so low it's fuckin' awesome."

"I said I love you, and I swear I still do."

So im looking to start a group chat on discord or maybe even a social media to provide tips/advice/help to people. It can be about anything. It can also be a way to meet new people and make new friends.
          
          Anyways, if you would be interested, tell me in the replies so I can go ahead and make it, along with maybe what socials you have so I can do that too

Im gonna completely redo my profile so uhm yea

One more week till Valentines day and I just realized that ill be alone for it...
          
          For the first time is like years
          
          
          Its fine bc I dont like celebrating it, but its also very sad, bc I really did get so used to spending it with him and now I cant
          
          Uhm anyways, imma go cry now

"I am in this place where I have nothing."
          
          Yea, me too Neytiri. Just loneliness and my problems.

I don't know how I found him, but I'm glad I did
          There was just something about him that pulled me in
          Like the way that he laughed at all of my stupid jokes
          And how his favorite thing to do was watch all his stupid shows, yeah
          I guess you never know just what you've got 'til it goes
          I'll pour another cup, I'm feeling pretty low
          He showed up at a time when I was down and out
          I didn't know what I'd do
          And then he pulled me through
          
          Yeah, I don't know how you did it, I was such a mess
          A few years, one too many tears, now I'll live with my regrets
          You said you want some space, I gave it
          Wish you still called me your baby, baby
          I've been dying lately, I've been missing you like crazy
          I guess you never know just what you've got 'til it leaves
          You slipped right through my hands just like the summer breeze
          I'm stuck in place, I waste away to pass the time
          It's just me and the moon and the long night
          Wishing I could get you out of my mind
          
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          Sleeping All Alone by Dixon Dallas
          
          Hits a lot harder when you have actually lost someone
          
          Probably the most relatable song I know rn

Im not putting any effort into relationships or friendships this year. Im tired of wasting my time with people who dont return the effort.
          
          Yes, this is targeted. If its towards you, youll know very soon.
          
          But yea, im not putting in any effort until someone else does first.

The harsh realization that the person I love the most cant be with me anymore
          
          Ill have to end the year without him. Start a new one without him. Spend the rest of the life without him.
          
          It hurts to know that the person who got me through so much cant be here with me any longer.
          
          Gonna be a very sad holiday.

Something that I find very funny is that the people who say they are about me the most cant even see how bad im struggling. Like you've known me for years, are you blind?
          
          (Not targeted I swear)