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@Ardef38 Yes, I would like to read this because it sounds interesting, and I also have a lot of sick and dark thoughts too.

@Milkyfrizz i just now seen this, im so sorry. Ilysm ❤️❤️ thank you for saying that honestly. It's really only hard to work through bc in my head I'm supposed to love aand only think about my bf who I've been dating for 6.5 years but like I literally can't get this guy and another coworker out of my head. My bf said I can fuck anyone as long as ifs not in our shared bed which is absolutely valid as fuck but pfc the 2 people I can't stop thinking about are both taken and I'll never have the chance. 
            
            After literally only a week, I've realized it's definitely not trauma bonding. We're just significantly too sexually compatible and I've never had that before bc I got some severely fucked up kinks. Like sl*t my throat type shit and no one has ever matched that in the 25 years I've been alive. Yet here this guy is. Literally perfect for me sexually in every single way I could ever possibly imagine.. And he isn't available. I'm just really fucking bummed I guess. I JUST NEED TO FUCK THIS GUY GODDAMNIT. 
            
            It also really doesn't help that we have pretty identical political views too. Like no joke we're fucking twins. AND HES MY TYPE THAT IVE HAD THE LONGEST?! like my type in men has really changed over the years and has become really lenient. But... hot goth guy with a beard, tattoos, long hair, and rings on damn near every finger?! Fucking RAW, next question. 
            
            im addicted to his attention. He plays the same fucking game i do when I want attention. I actually like I don't want attention so the other gives it first. AND HE DOES IT TOO but he gives in first bc he knows I won't. 
            
            God wait a minute.. when did this turn into a rant about him... 
            
            God im so lost in thought now..

@Ardef38 I completely understand having a crisis like this! Mine was finding out if I was bi or just gay. Remember that even if you identify as something now, years later you can change! It could be trauma but work through everything piece by piece and you'll get there! No matter what, we support you! 

I still don't think I'm Demi, I'm just trying to convince myself that it's just trauma bonding that makes me catch feels but like? I looked up demisexuality and it pretty much hit the nail on the head. and ofc I've known that I've been poly for a while now so idk. I'm at my quarter-life crisis currently (haha love TxT)  but imma just act like none of this is happy so my life doesn't get messed up yaknow?

@LinoWasFound HOW THE FUCK DID I NOT SEE THIS BEFORE?!?!?!??!?! I love you so so so so much pookieee. Never forget that ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

@Ardef38 merry Christmas I love youuyy

@l1issaa  thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu <333333333333

@ChansBrokenLaptop sadlyyy XD

@linos_broccoli thank you my love <3

@ChansBrokenLaptop right xD 

@Ardef38 girl i swear you just turned 24 damn

@ Ardef38  being half fifty isn't that bad :) chan lived through it too <3

Meeeeeeee *

@hyunlix_favorite8 thank youuuuu! : ) @linowasfound made it for melee:3 <3 love you pookie

@Ardef38 WHY IS THIS EXACTLY WHAT I THOUGHT WHEN I LISTENED??

@Ardef38 Me too

@Lisajennie93 so am i

@Ardef38   I'm terrified :'(