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Man I gotta be the stupidest mf on the planet istg-
My partner will ask if it's okay for them to do something, I'll say yes knowing damn well that I don't want them to do that, they'll ask again to double confirm so I will. Then they do it and I get upset and try to hide it but they can tell something is wrong so they ask if I'm okay and mY LYING ASS SAYS YES SO THEY SAY OKAY AND MOVE ON FROM THE CONVERSATION BECAUSE DUH BUT IM STILL NOT OVER IT AND THEY DONT EVEN KNOW BUT IF I TOLD THEM THAT IM NOT OKAY WITH IT NOW THEN THEYLL FEEL BAD FOR DOING IT AND ALSO ILL LOOK STUPID BECAUSE I SAID YES BEFORE AND NOW ALL OF A SUDDEN I CHANGE MY MIND??
I FUCK MYSELF OVER FROM THE BEGINNING KNOWING DAMN WELL HOW EVERYTHING IS GOING TO PLAY OUT AND YET I S T I L L DO IT.
There's somethin wrong with me fr
And my immediate solution to the problem? Is either run away and hide until they break up with me/forget about me or break up with them so that I don't have to deal with it anymore. In reality I don't WANT either of those options but in my head those are the only two, that's it. And then I wonder why my relationships don't last that long pffff