Hey you guys, as you know um i'm usually really happy to see you guys. But I am having a really hard time right now. Do any of you ever feel suicidal and not know why until you break? Because tha's what's happening to me. I can't take anymore yelling, hitting or fat shaming. I'm tired and lonely. My partners don't know about this. Should I tell them? Well, if I don't update after Feb 7th,then I just want to say it was nice knowing all of you. And for my littles, don't you ever forget that daddy loves you.