🩸🌈▪︎ 童磨, Douma, Upper Rank Two ▪︎🪭🩸

God damn its been awhile since I was on here. Uhh---

I literally haven't checked wattpad since my last announcement

My cats purrs qnd the fact they need me to survive are one of the few things keeping me alive right now. Along with a certain person who might not even care.

I just want to be transported into the same universe as my characters. I'd spill all my feelings all at once talking to Kaiyo, I'd fall asleep surrounded by the warmth of the fictional characters I like to imagine are family. I often find myself cuddling my pillow of stuffies like I would multiple of my characters and just start crying as if it were their shoulders I was crying onto. I'd fall asleep encased by Aviel or Aniela’s wings, maybe Ace could teach me to fight or Yuri could teach me French. I could get swimming lessons from Kaiyo and singing lessons from Himei. Have Aniela teach me to use a bow and arrow. And have Kaiyo share some of her recipes with me. Obviously the things I would give for this to be true. I wonder what special power I would hold?

is it weird I make my characters personalities based off people I wish I could have irl? Yeah? Okay, I'll just go back to my dark corner and think of more scenarios that will never happen because my characters aren't real

@P1nkKanr0j1M1tsur1 remember when you were straight? Me neither LMAO

GUESS WHAT~? I'M POLYAMOROUS. DATING 3 PEOPLE, AND HAVE A CRUSH ON ONE OTHER! NIGHT CONFESS LATER. KILL ME PLEASE!

remember when you hated me?

Y'all can call me edgy or emo or whatever the hell you want but that won't change the fact I wish I had different parents. We were shopping and was pointing out some things, maybe e-4 things that OTHER family members might like for Christmas. And my dad tried to tell me to just go sit ALONE in the car for the rest of shopping (which took maybe a hour) and then both of my parents started to yell and discipline me in the middle of a busy Isle. So I left and roamed around the store. And they didn't even bother to come look for me or tell any staff. My mom CALLED when she was leaving but that was it. And now I'm crying in the car and my mom is saying that I have no business crying. And she's telling me that I need to stop pointing shit out when I really can't control what I say or do half the time. I honestly just wish they would actually see me as someone with feelings and not just a brat who wants everything she sees because that's not who am at all. I actually feel safer at school then I do at my own damn house

If y'all have WEBTOON read this 
          https://www.webtoons.com/en/horror/horang-horror/list?title_no=2185. It's horror obviously. And I recommend going back to reread the chapters right after you finish them it's ffucking WHOOOOOODODJFBSIXVD