BellaT318
check out the new stuff! happy to be back my lovelies :)
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BellaT318
maybe I can get this to type now. it's been a hell of a 3 years... y'all don't even know
BellaT318
it's working now. hi everyone. i'm back.
BellaT318
WTF IS GOING ON
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it will not let me post
BellaT318
Developing a theory that between 9 and 10pm your brain and your vagina switch places.
BellaT318
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On the topic
I can't get his smile out of my head
And the way he laughed with his arm around me
And his really hot voice when he asked if I wanted to take a walk on the beach
And the look on his face when he locked the doors of the car
So
Fuck
I really do think I want this
But at the same time it's after 9pm so I really can't be trusted with making decisions anymore
But this guy is beautiful my loves
Just trying not to fall in love because I know I'll get hurt :)
BellaT318
Asking all my friends who are no longer in possession of their v card
I met my dream boy a few months ago and we've been talking for a while, I hung out with him for the first time last night
Well... we didn't do a lot of talking but
(Full disclosure, he was technically my first kiss, and we went really far for my level of experience)
So he's 2 years older than me and obviously a lot more experienced. It was nice... there's a hickey on my boob XD (Did I mention we were in the back of his car in the middle of a parking lot at an extremely popular beach?)
SO this morning he said it was 'okay' (?!) but it would be better if I took more than my shirt off
Obviously YES, but I'm a straight A student and getting pregnant would ruin my life
SO, without a way to access birth control and stuff like that how can I be completely confident I'm going to be okay?
Along similar lines, OMG anyone have any tips he's beautiful and I'm really excited
BellaT318
@_-_nefelibata_-_ have I ever mentioned I love you? Also really good point, I might try talking to him about it. I'm in way over my head, not going to lie.
abbi_jean
@BellaT318 God man, I don't even know what to say. I have not lost my v card personally, but please don't do it unless you are totally comfortable with it. He kind of sounds like he's pushing you, just a little. It's totally up to you though, but just ask yourself if you really like him that much to do something so imamate with. It should be special, something you do with someone you really like and who really likes you. I support you in all your decisions though, so what ever you chose I'm here for you <3
BellaT318
SO
i got a new phone but like more importantly
i just started rewatching teen titans go and the amazing world of gumball and i have literally never been happier
i miss my childhood when i was happy and not horny all the time :(
i almost started crying because i just wanted someone to cuddle and watch the amazing world of gumball with
on a totally different note anyone know how to hack screentime because the limits on my new phone are ruining my life
BellaT318
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I got myself into something and I need your guy's help
So I accidentally got drunk (the only person who ever actually looks at my updates already knows this story) and asked one of my guy friends to make out with me AS PRACTICE FOR WHEN I HOOK UP WITH MY ACTUAL CRUSH
it seemed like a good idea at the time
because like... you know I won't be bad and I'll know what to do
my last kiss was when I hooked up with this girl at camp last year so I kind of forgot that the fuck I'm doing
But now I'm nervous to kiss him?
Should I just get drunk again that seems like the best solution
love yall and send help
Bella
BellaT318
@_-_nefelibata_-_ boy's lucky to even get the chance, i can count on one hand the (real) people I would make out with so he better not have a problem with it LMFAO
BellaT318
@_-_nefelibata_-_ it's funny because now i have anxiety over this WHAT IF IM BAD AND ITS EMBARASSING