Bella T

check out the new stuff! happy to be back my lovelies :)

maybe I can get this to type now. it's been a hell of a 3 years... y'all don't even know

it's working now. hi everyone. i'm back.

WTF IS GOING ON

it will not let me post

Developing a theory that between 9 and 10pm your brain and your vagina switch places.

On the topic
          I can't get his smile out of my head
          And the way he laughed with his arm around me
          And his really hot voice when he asked if I wanted to take a walk on the beach
          And the look on his face when he locked the doors of the car
          So
          Fuck
          I really do think I want this
          But at the same time it's after 9pm so I really can't be trusted with making decisions anymore
          But this guy is beautiful my loves
          Just trying not to fall in love because I know I'll get hurt :)

Asking all my friends who are no longer in possession of their v card
          I met my dream boy a few months ago and we've been talking for a while, I hung out with him for the first time last night
          Well... we didn't do a lot of talking but
          (Full disclosure, he was technically my first kiss, and we went really far for my level of experience)
          So he's 2 years older than me and obviously a lot more experienced. It was nice... there's a hickey on my boob XD (Did I mention we were in the back of his car in the middle of a parking lot at an extremely popular beach?)
          SO this morning he said it was 'okay' (?!) but it would  be better if I took more than my shirt off
          Obviously YES, but I'm a straight A student and getting pregnant would ruin my life
          SO, without a way to access birth control and stuff like that how can I be completely confident I'm going to be okay?
          Along similar lines, OMG anyone have any tips he's beautiful and I'm really excited

SO
          i got a new phone but like more importantly
          i just started rewatching teen titans go and the amazing world of gumball and i have literally never been happier
          i miss my childhood when i was happy and not horny all the time :(
          i almost started crying because i just wanted someone to cuddle and watch the amazing world of gumball with
          
          on a totally different note anyone know how to hack screentime because the limits on my new phone are ruining my life

I got myself into something and I need your guy's help
          So I accidentally got drunk (the only person who ever actually looks at my updates already knows this story) and asked one of my guy friends to make out with me AS PRACTICE FOR WHEN I HOOK UP WITH MY ACTUAL CRUSH
          it seemed like a good idea at the time
          because like... you know I won't be bad and I'll know what to do
          my last kiss was when I hooked up with this girl at camp last year so I kind of forgot that the fuck I'm doing
          But now I'm nervous to kiss him?
          Should I just get drunk again that seems like the best solution
          love yall and send help
          Bella