Dustin

This is my new account. I got locked out of this one

Sonim actually having a panic attack cause I can't find my retainer. Dumb thing to have a panic attack over, but I've been looking for 4 hours. I don't wanna tell my parents cause I'll probably find it 10 minutes after I tell them, but since I lost it I'll be grounded for a month

Father I want a sibling so I demand you to give me one 

I think I just scared away an itch cause my arm itched so I pulled up my sleeve and looked at it with an annoyed face and then it stoped itching. Bish tf

Almost everyone that knows I'm pan gets so triggered when I say "I'm so gay" or "it's cause I'm gay" or something along those lines and it's like bish I'm not saying like "I'm so pan" and besides I often fall for guys and people whose gender is more towards the male side then females, but I still like females. So like yeah I'm saying I'm gay, but I'm pan and if you can correct me(how tf can you correct someone's sexuality, like you don't fucking know, maybe they realized something) then obviously you know I'm pan and you should just fucking chill 

I like that you're broken, broken like me maybe that makes me a fool. I like that you're lonely, lonely like me, I could be lonely with you
          
          
          Nope, doesn't make you a fool, kinda makes you a prick tho...
          
          But like same
          (I love this song so don't attack me)

Everyone is saying no to me. I'm gonna die sometime, and while I'm not saying I'm gonna kill myself, I am saying I would be fine if it was soon or literally right now.

I know everyone dies, and I'm okay with dying. But I don't want to kill myself only because I don't want others to blame themselves. I just want an accident or disease to happen, so they don't have to have my death give them a guilty conscience

My anxiety and depression have been horrible all this week, and I don't think I can take anymore.

I hate my life so much. I was literally either crying or about to cry all day at school cause I hate everything about myself. My looks, my voice, the things I like, my sexuality, my gender. I just want to be normal like everyone else cause at least then I'll feel somewhat accepted. And to top my day of, my homophobic, transphobic, horrible parent(my father) is screaming at me for never doing anything right, and not leaving the house to hang out with friends, and not being like normal kids my age. And my mother is just standing there. And if I start crying they are gonna yell at me and tell me to stop be so emotional over everything. I can't do this. I don't wanna pretend to be someone else because no one, not even myself can accept and like me. I wanna go away. Not from here, from everywhere. I don't even enjoy things I use to love anymore and my friends who thought I was so cool and funny(when I put on a face and pretended to be fine) don't even want to be around me for more than an hour or so. And I barely care except for the fact that I know it's cause I'm horrible at everythin