
BombShellDumbo
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There's 31 days until my birthday and let me tell you I'm so scared, I'll be 16, I don't want to drive, I want to be a little kid, I don't want to have worries of risking anothers life, I don't want to risk mine, but there's no choice. Mums forced me into doing my theory.. yay.. I passed and tbh I barely tried I know I'm meant to read it carefully and shit but I guessed half the answers and got most right, I guess it's just my luck. I know I should be happy, and grateful because I'm getting a car for my 16th, but I didn't ask for this, I don't want to drive, it's giving me nightmares, every single day since the beginning of the year has been terror just thinking of it, many people have said that it's not as bad as they seem but to me, they don't have to worry as much, I can't see out of my left eye, so it'll be harder for me to drive and look out for people. This sucks, my life sucks and what will suck even more is my birthday, it has been horrible since I was 10, nothing ever is good on my birthday.. I'm sick of it, I'm not even 18 yet don't want to celebrate it, this year might not be the worst birthday but it will never be the best, my best birthday was when I was 8 and under.. because I don't remember what happened on those days. Anyways it's 3am and I need to sleep but I can't, I hope whoever reads this sleeps good tonight I'm sorry for troubling you with my fears