BombShellDumbo

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There's 31 days until my birthday and let me tell you I'm so scared, I'll be 16, I don't want to drive, I want to be a little kid, I don't want to have worries of risking anothers life, I don't want to risk mine, but there's no choice. Mums forced me into doing my theory.. yay.. I passed and tbh I barely tried I know I'm meant to read it carefully and shit but I guessed half the answers and got most right, I guess it's just my luck. I know I should be happy, and grateful because I'm getting a car for my 16th, but I didn't ask for this, I don't want to drive, it's giving me nightmares, every single day since the beginning of the year has been terror just thinking of it, many people have said that it's not as bad as they seem but to me, they don't have to worry as much, I can't see out of my left eye, so it'll be harder for me to drive and look out for people. This sucks, my life sucks and what will suck even more is my birthday, it has been horrible since I was 10, nothing ever is good on my birthday.. I'm sick of it, I'm not even 18 yet don't want to celebrate it, this year might not be the worst birthday but it will never be the best, my best birthday was when I was 8 and under.. because I don't remember what happened on those days. Anyways it's 3am and I need to sleep but I can't, I hope whoever reads this sleeps good tonight I'm sorry for troubling you with my fears

BombShellDumbo

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There's 31 days until my birthday and let me tell you I'm so scared, I'll be 16, I don't want to drive, I want to be a little kid, I don't want to have worries of risking anothers life, I don't want to risk mine, but there's no choice. Mums forced me into doing my theory.. yay.. I passed and tbh I barely tried I know I'm meant to read it carefully and shit but I guessed half the answers and got most right, I guess it's just my luck. I know I should be happy, and grateful because I'm getting a car for my 16th, but I didn't ask for this, I don't want to drive, it's giving me nightmares, every single day since the beginning of the year has been terror just thinking of it, many people have said that it's not as bad as they seem but to me, they don't have to worry as much, I can't see out of my left eye, so it'll be harder for me to drive and look out for people. This sucks, my life sucks and what will suck even more is my birthday, it has been horrible since I was 10, nothing ever is good on my birthday.. I'm sick of it, I'm not even 18 yet don't want to celebrate it, this year might not be the worst birthday but it will never be the best, my best birthday was when I was 8 and under.. because I don't remember what happened on those days. Anyways it's 3am and I need to sleep but I can't, I hope whoever reads this sleeps good tonight I'm sorry for troubling you with my fears

BombShellDumbo

Bye I groaned and my back cracked like 3 times... But like... How y'all doing? Christmas was good for me I got money and stuff, a few months back I got a cat he's a whitish ragdoll and he's 9 months old , tbh he's been keeping me alive , anyways I started a diet so I don't eat any processed sugar and it isn't actually that hard for me, I never really liked a lot of sugar but y'know how cravings work lol, I'm 1 and a half months in and I took a day off for Christmas and lemme tell you, every bit of sugar I ate, aside from soft drinks tasted so bad and disgusting. so far I lost motivation to do stuff, I only get up to feed monty and keep up with his litter trays, mind you his litter trays costs more than my tv  anyways have a good week and a good new year. (the current story that I only just started like a few weeks ago, I barely made any progress I'm only 500 words in chapter 1, so I might discontinue it after posting chapter 1 when I'm finished but if I get motivation I'll pick it back up) anyways I've been sick for a couple of weeks there's something going on in my neighbourhood and no it ain't covid lol, it does still happen but not by much anyways byee I just wanted to put in a checkup since I haven't really socialised, and everyone reading this thank you and I LOVE YOU PLATONICALLY ❤️❤️

BombShellDumbo

@BombShellDumbo also I just watched Deadpool and wolverine I can't say who's hotter but I would smash both
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BombShellDumbo

Haven't eaten anything in days and feel really sick but I hope whoever is reading this has a good week 
          
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BombShellDumbo

@AlexsWRLD29 your too kind thank you <33
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AlexsWRLD29

NO YOU NEED TO EAT, I demand you eat dear, take care of yourself<3 I hope you get better soon
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