CelaenaTheViolinist

I don’t know who will read this, but I started streaming on twitch, I’ve been having a lot of fun if anyone wants to join me. My twitch handle is SarahTheViolinist

CelaenaTheViolinist

I paid for and started reading a paid wattpad book called Heartfire by @CrystalScherer and I love it so far. I very much recommend it. Its different than what I usually read but it is still really good. 

CrystalScherer

@CelaenaTheViolinist 
            I'm glad you're enjoying it!
            And thanks for the recommendation.  :)
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CelaenaTheViolinist

Im sick of my life at the moment. I am struggling with depression and loneliness. I may go to a decent sized school and there are people i talk to but thats only when they talk to me. I never initiate the conversation with anyone. Im too scared and being alone is all i deserve. Nobody wants to hang out with me anyway. Im lonely and im single and i cant bring myself to talk to anyone. All i can bring myself to do is eat, sleep, and read hp fanfic on here, like "The Marauders" series, Draconian, Tightly Knit, among others. 

PHANT0MPRINCE

@CelaenaTheViolinist if the circumstances would be different I'd say it's impossible to feel what you're feeling but trust me, I feel you mate. 
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CelaenaTheViolinist

Im sure not a lot of people will see this, but  i need to talk about it. 
          
          At my university I am a part of the band. I love it and we had our christmas concert tonight. I took a supposed to be small nap before it but i didnt wake up. I completely missed it. I wouldn't be as devastated but i get a scholarship with the band and I may lose it. Im trying to work with the director but a part of me still thinks I will lose it because the performance was mandatory for the students on a band scholarship. 
          
          On top of that at my school I was an education major. I was denied entry into the teacher education program. This means that I have to chanfe my major. Because this happened in my Junior year, I will have to graduate late. I am now majoring in Criminal Justice. 
          
          Everything that can go wrong, is going wrong and I havent felt properly happy since before middle school (due to other students at the school i went to physically and mentally hurting me). I dont want to admit it, but I know I need to. For those of you who have read The Marauders series by @Pengiwen and have gottwn to the part about Sirius being depressed, you will get what I am saying. It feels like there is a Dementor living inside of me. 
          
          WHY IS EVERYTHING GOING WRONG!!!! WHEN WILL THE SADNESS END!!!!!