Trinity Hargrove

Love is always the strangest thing for me. Even though im caught up in it a lot it annoys me the way i act. I get distracted from my school work and constantly think about them and always wanna text them. And imagine all these perfect fantasies with them. I got my dream boyfriend man.
          Beautiful hair i can run my fingers through
          Emo
          Deep voice to dom me with
          Quick replier
          Loves most of the things I love
          Best friend and a boyfriend at the same time
          Evil that matches my evil
          Ugh i cant. This is a dream come true i swear. Thats all lol thank you bye <3

I deleted my story because the guy is was basing off of (my use to be crush) isn't my crush anymore and i have nothing else to write about so, sorry. I broke the dude's nose too and I still feel so bad for it lol. But we are cool again and we're friends so everything is okay. I'm kinda glad that's all over because that was a lot of drama and heart strings were getting pulled hard between...well... a few people lol so ya, story deleted, feelings deleted, nose deleted XD (okay that wasn't funny. oof)

okay so i read comments on fanfic when im trying to take up time and i cant stop laughing; "we know sh*t goes down when people go out to Olive Garden" "come on josh quit playing with the pussy" IM FUCKING DEAD. Josh was playing with a baby kitten after they ate at Olive Garden and tyler said "come on josh quit playing with the kitten" AND THAT COMMENT KILLED ME 

Have you ever been so afraid to expose yourself to somebody? Then have to show them the depths of your vulnerability through a game of 21 questions and being completely comfortable in being that open for a second. The butterflies for that person and the intensity of the moment cause you to withdraw and close back up though. Simply because exposing yourself to the person that has their hands on your heart, that person that could stop loving you at any second can be intimidating to do.

*RANT* I just want you to be mine but every single thing has to be in the way. You have a gf, it won't be legal soon, everyone makes fun of me because I like you, and I hate myself for loving you. I'm not allowed to but I can't help it. All I want is to kiss you and be in your arms again but it feels like we're worlds apart, even though you're so close I would see you every day if I could. I'm scared of you losing feelings...but I know in reality it would be the best thing. Let me be selfish for once. I want you all to myself...but I can't fucking have you. Though we are so close, everyday I feel us drifting farther. Don't leave me. You promised me you wouldn't. We don't have to be ta thing I just never never ever ever want you to leave me. Please please please don't leave me. I love you so much and all I ever want to do is make you happy. I love cuddling your arm everyday and then have your smell on me for the rest of the day. It's one of my favorite smells. I love you so much. You don't have to love me back, just choose who will make you most happy. I don't want to spoil your plans for prom, so stay with her and forget about my feelings. I love the way you lie. Buttering me up when I'm sad, just to make me feel better. I told you to not get my hopes up and you did it anyways. But it's so irresistible. I wish you were mine. ~ from SarBear to Teddy Bear...❤

So, this thing happened today. I was in my RTI class and the teacher was asking everyone what they want to do when they're older. He got to me and I just said that what I want to be is a little embarrassing. I knew it was coming but it somehow still upset me; a kid who I won't name said "she's gonna be a stripper" and snickered with his friends. Well the teacher heard him and he was piiisssseeddd. I just sat there reading my book trying not to cry like the baby I am while the teacher gave the kid a huge lecture. when the bell rang I bolted out of there. though I had the same teacher I had to get my stuff for the class. I was fast walking through the halls trying not to cry or have an anxiety attack. I actually slammed my locker too hard. I got back and he was still giving the kid a lecture. I sat down and finally let it out. I silently sobbed and the teacher sent the kid to his next class. Then he took me out in the hall and talked to me. So then we walked to the kids next class pulled him out, and the teacher talked to him. Then I got to talk to him. It felt good to get it out. Its very fucking rare for the bullied to call out the bully. But I did. I didn't look at him the whole time I talked though (for some reason I hate eye contact. It's awkward to me. It makes me feel vulnerable and scared.) So I don't know what his reaction was but I hope he'll realize what the fuck he did. I went to the school councilor and talked for the whole class period and a little bit of the next class. But the kid was in that class, so when I knocked on the door and looked down and took a quick glance up, the kid slouched down and it looked like he felt bad. And I hope to god he did. I hope he's embarrassed and ashamed of himself for what he did. I know when I told him I'm depressed and (not so much anymore, but) suicidal, it "made me more vulnerable" but I just hope it makes him realize what the fuck him and his friend group and shit does to me. So ya, there's that. Have a good day...

So, I'm back to PC wattpad. I honestly missed it a lot. Going on mobile for so long was horrible. Yeah, I'll give credit where credit is due, mobile had its ups, but mostly downs. So yay. And...I have a book idea that I hopefully will write. Maybe. Just depends on if my writers block kicks into over drive or not. Lol

I love love loveeeeee you my greasy bestieeeeee

I accidentally said oof really loudly in the band room and since it was quiet everyone looked at me and I  said oof really loudly in my head lol oof

Should I post my story draft? Yes or no. Go vote on my Instagram story too @celestialkittie