@Cherrypop455 its not worth it if your ex partner doesnt fought as hard for the both of you. I know its kinda late and Im new to your story. Im a recent reader.
Idk you and you dont know me, but i have a very close friend who i can call my sister in all but blood.
She had a dirvorce like you, only to end up happily with another. Just know that even if you feel like that, maybe it was never meant to be. Maybe someone is out there that is right for you. Or you need to be by yourself and breathe.
But at the end the day, just know that you have all our support even if it feels empty. Im hoping you're doing ok even though this is very late.