Angsty lesbian

so, it's been a hot minute, huh? 
          
          i'd like to apologize for lack of updates and inactivity. 
          
          the last few months have honestly been hectic for me, as they have been for a lot of people. anyway, onto my point of this post.
          
          i will be moving houses in a matter of days, which is nerve-wracking, but there is something else concerning my books and my account as a whole.
          
          The computer i use to write my stories on doesn't exactly belong to me. it belongs to my school board and when i move I'll be moving out of my school board district, so i will have to return it. i don't have my account on my phone and won't be able to update from there and i don't remember the password unfortunately and won't be able to actually access the account again. so, in a way this is goodbye.
          
          I will still be using my second account if any of you are curious.
          
          I'd like to thank all of you for supporting me and my books. it's been fun and i appreciate each and every one of my wonderful followers.
          
          I wish you all the best and hope you are all doing well and that things look up for you if you are struggling at the moment.
          
          -mairyn :)

Rest in peace Naya Rivera, the world has lost an angel

I'd also like to wish everybody a happy pride month!

I usually don't make messages about things going on in the world, but I think what is happening now is an acception. I don't even know how to explain how I feel. Disgust would be a good place to start. I am thoroughly disgusted with the police and the things they are doing. To all the cops that are standing with protesters and protesting with them, thank you, you are the good ones. Also, to any of the people that follow me that say "bUt aLl Lives mAtTer", you can unfollow me now because I will not stand for that kind of ignorance on my page. 
          
          For those of you who would like to help, donate, sign petitions, USE YOUR VOICE! That last part is directed at white black allies that follow me.
          
          Stay safe out there if you are going to protest, wear masks, bring water, all the essentials. 
          
          In the words of the lead singer of Billy Talent, "Raise your voice like a weapon until they fall to the ground."
          
          Stay safe in these troubling times everyone.  #nojusticenopeace #blacklivesmatter

So, that random surge of motivation lasted for about an hour. I can hardly bring myself to write anything and my mental health has taken a nosedive. I'll likely be put into intense therapy pretty soon, possibly some type of medication. Although, my parents are trying to avoid that possibility. I don't really know what the next few months or maybe even year are going to be like and I don't know if you'll hear from me for a while, but I just figured I'd let all you lovely people know.
          
          I hope you are all doing well and taking care of yourselves. Have a lovely day and/or night :)

I just got this random surge of motivation and came up with a plot for another book in my head. I really like the idea that I have so far, its a little different and I will be posting it after I work out the kinks in the plot. Fair warning, this isn't really based around Violentine, its more so Clementine and the background that I'm going to give her and where it leads to her future :) Anyways, I hope you all enjoy this, because I know I already am.

Feels like I'm losing my mind. I have no motivation and my thoughts are louder than my own voice at times. My parents are also always at each other's throats and I fear for the future. I don't want to imagine a life where they are divorced. I miss my friends, and I can never sleep. I feel like I'm just gonna fall over and not get up.
          If anyone read this far, thank you. I just needed to vent a little.

I've been really working on my other works on my other account, so I apologize for not updating on this account. I getting really into my books. Anyways, just wanted to assure you guys that I'm not disappearing for another few months :)
          ~Bailey

I feel a million times better!! I can breathe! Never again will I take for granted the gift of being able to breathe through my nose.
          
          Anyways, since I'm feeling so much better, I will hopefully be working on the next chapter for the long road ahead. 
          
          ~Bailey :)

I was gonna write another chapter for the long road ahead, but I'm sick and might have bronchitis, so that's sadly not gonna happen.