彡cloud ★ ‌

happy pride month
          
          happy pride month (but over here)
          
          
          
          I just finished my first year of college. I've had this same Wattpad account since I was 12. I'm almost 19. Time is a fuck.
          
          Hope y'all are doing well, especially given that you're all probably adults by now too! You should see my face right now with its dead eyes. I can barely comprehend that this has happened. Who knows, I might make another fic (or even original fiction) to post on here and my Ao3 sometime in the near future (or not, I never know with my ability to self-motivate for creative endeavors).
          
          Lmk what points in your life y'all are at now so I can stare in shock and cry a little bit about it

Happy pride month everyone!!

I'm going to unpublish my fics for now because a lot of fanfic is getting deleted.

Me: *casually enjoying my day and cuddling my pets.*
          Also me: *remembering the genocide happening in Gaza (it is genocide - infrastructure is destroyed, all palestinians living in gaza are starving (including children!!), and they're bombing the last refuge of rafah as of yesterday) that the us government is allowing while also passing sanctions on palestine and selling weapons to israel.* E
          
          If you don't know about this shit already, do so. A man burned himself to death, and that was the first thing (and only thing) that got CNN and the New York Times to stop shoving their faces up Israel's ass.
          
          This may not be what you want to see on your feed, but enough people are ignorant that it matters.
          
          Free Palestine. Fuck genocide. There is no justification.
          
          And just because I don't support genocide doesn't mean I support either government involved!! Hamas is also bad, but they're not committing genocide!!
          
          Palestine is one of two places in the world in the highest category (5) of food insecurity. The other is around ~20k people in South Sudan. There are 1.1 million people in Gaza. These are by and large civilians being slaughtered.
          
          I hate that the US government is supporting genocide. I hate the US government in general.

There's been a big data breach, called the mother of all breaches or moab. It's basically a madsive compilation of all major breaches, totally 2.7 billion accounts data. If you didn't change your password after Wattpad's last data breach, do it now. If you already have, that's not entirely necessary, but it is a good measure to take. I'll probably dip from the platform for another month now. Hope you're all doing well and continue to do well. See you.

As an American, fuck America and fuck these politicians. I would elaborate but society had been making me so fucking tired. Fun fact: Texas' state government put wires to keep immigrants out. The people were not informed. People drowned. Children drowned. Texas sucks, the Confederate flag means you are racist without exception, find some other symbol for fucking off from America that isn't racist. America sucks, our rights are being stripped away, Capitalism should be abolished and the power shouldn't be in the hands of the few. Also, Israel. Stop supporting Israel. Sure, Palestine is also committing atrocitiess... do you not know what war is?? Israel is being awful. On a global scale politics are a fuck and not enough people are aware of this. Or if they are they're the wrong sort of woke.
          
          Feel free to ask me for political info and shit. Voices are being silenced. Fun fact: the FBI scent MARTIN LUTHER KING JR., y'know, a major factor in stopping segregation, a very threatening letter that subtly insinuated he should off himself. The American government has barely changed. This is America. Fuck this fuck politics fuck everything.
          
          Anyway, outside of existential hatred for the powers that be, I'm doing pretty well. Good relationships with friends and family, cut off my abusive mom, I'm doing well in school for once, my mental health is stable and my physical health is improving. My life is doing well even as the world falls apart. Trying not to get a complex about it. Hope you all are doing well, that you're living your best lives. You deserve it my glorious pookie bears.
          
          I wish you happiness. I hope that where you live isn't embroiled in or soon to be embroiled in turmoil. Thanks for making it this far through my rant.
          
          Brain is mush. I'm 16 and in my second semester of grade eleven time ia a fuck.
          
          Good night. :)

About once a month I watch horror series on YouTube. It's been a couple months and my tolerance is low, so I binged a (short) analog horror series. The horror is real. I'm using my dog as a weighted blanket. A train going across the town tracks gave me a heart attack. The sounds of my cat cleaning herself are horrifying. Surprisingly, the crickets have not given me an aneurysm yet. I guess I'll just have to give myself one! I'm going to lick the counters until I become patient 0 for a horror virus and inevitably get saved by a fifth dimensional being (my dog).
          
          Analog horror series was 'Stone Cold'. It's decent, nothing super special, but the way they present it is good. A way to introduce yourself to the analog horror genre if you're interested.
          
          Anywhores, I know it's been a while lads. And ladettes. And ladoots. Lad-whatever-the-cucks. Good morning or evening or whatever. I've been busy. School is hell but my grades are so fucking seggsy I think I've entered an alternate reality. While extra credit points don't go into final grades, I technically have an 105% for French. It's great.
          
          Now dearies, you filthy adorable little scoops of fecal matter from the darling bottom of a charasmatic abandoned well like the deadbeat dad it always wanted to be, you troglodytes without an ounce of personality and the intelligence of a twig, I love you all dearly and wish you the best. I hope you've been well. How are you? Have things been comfortable at the least? If you need anything, I'm here to start a parasocial relationship with you wherein I am the dominatrix of your dreams.
          
          Regards, until next time, Cloud is gonna go fuck off and do the (not-so) illicit substance known as CBD. If you're anxious (and 16+), give it a try. May not work for everyone, but it sure as hell makes the crushing weight of reality fuck off a little while for me.

I was playing hit game Genshin Impact™ when this random dude with a catgirl pfp tried to join my world. They talked like they either only knew so much English or didn't know how the youngsters speak. Either or, it was very sus.
          
          Second thing they did was ask for my phone number, before retracting it as a joke. Then my Instagram (I do not have an Instagram), then my age. They did not reveal their age, making me play a guessing game, before saying they were 14 but looked 15. My Pedophile radar, which has never been wrong, went off with a flip-flop between 70% and 90% certainty.
          
          I have not blocked this user. I have added them in hit game Genshin Impact™. I will try to remember to give an update tomorrow.
          
          Oh here's my Genshin Impact™ uid if you wanna play: 660793258
          
          Currently saving for Yelan after getting my darling Kokofish (who heals 4.7k per tick). Wishing you luck in Gacha games, fucking with Pedophiles, and mysterious, illusive internet interactions.
          
          ...
          
          Looking at my profile, I am reminded of the CountryHumans fandom. My mind is blown, thoughts altered, my dog sharted. What I will do with this information may surprise you: nothing but wallow in the depths of eternal misery.
          
          Do the hokie pokie and fuck off.
          
          Good night.

I'll be turning sixteen in two days. Every time I open this app I remember that CountryHumans fanfic I wrote three-ish years ago now. Fuck. I want to rewrite it, none of you should be subject to this, but I alreasy tried that once and you see how that went.
          
          Gods, the passing of time is beyond insane. I'd elaborate on the specifics of that but I don't feel like it.
          
          Thank you all for following me, I guess. Whether you followed me years ago or followed me in recent years. I still write, I just never finish anything. I am still a cringy kid who reads xreader fics, despite being AroAce. Hope y'all are doing well. Have some of my birthday watermelon, my favorite food. If any of your birthdays are now or soon, I hope they are pleasant.
          
          This is my first update in a while. I might post something on my birthday, June 20th. We'll see.

wattpad comment sections be wild these days. some people assumed i was 10 and were awful about it. i'm in highschool. this is why i only use wattpad when i run out of fic on ao3. when i get home i'm gonna walk my dog and forget today ever happened, but i still gotta give out all the valentines i made for my irls first.