Hi everyone, I’ve decided to unpublish my fanfiction from my account. I know it’s beloved by some people but I feel that now I’m no longer a teenager, I’m not happy with some of the subject matter I dealt with. I felt guided down a path I’m not comfortable with anymore. I was encouraged by some people to go down the MPreg route but I now feel that I pressured myself into writing something that I was very uncomfortable with at the time to please others with and that I only completed the story going down that path as a 15-17 year old because of the pressure that some fanfiction authors feel to complete work due to how many unfinished works ruin reading experiences. I finished this story when I was roughly 18 despite my discomfort as I got older.
I’ve also matured in the way I view the SebaCiel ship and realised that I don’t agree with the ship in general, but I still believe having Ciel as an adult man at the beginning of my story was the way to go and more acceptable. I realise now that I was essentially enjoying the idea of an immortal being who was unable to form attachments falling in love with someone they become almost obsessed with, and that my characterisation of the ship is different from the norm because i essentially just used the names, situations and story facts from Black Butler but made the characters act and think differently from the source material entirely.
I’m not sure if you all would prefer it to stay up on my account and perhaps be altered the way I’d prefer the story to go now that I’m older and no longer feel comfortable with the story I wrote? I understand it’s beloved and people do revisit it all the time
