CrystallizeFlower

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Highkey, chapter 100 has been a struggle, gang. Trying to make it special has also made it this giant wall I have to scale, and I hurt just by existing  how am I gonna climb a WALL
          	
          	Anyway, I am constantly in surprise at how this story has still gone on. My reader count hasn't changed a lot considering I only update SBHS on Wattpad — should I attempt to crosspost to AO3 so it's also easier for some of you to archive? I personally haven't updated SBHS on ff.net or added it to AO3 just because of the sheer amount of chapters I have to reformat (and also because I try to keep everything untouched other than grammar and/or continuity mistakes which means I'd have to post my author notes and cringe writing from 2017 AHHHHH). Let me know! Especially if you have an idea on how active the MCSM community is on those sites. 
          	
          	I am also pretty shit at tagging because that's too much thinking outside of writing the stories themselves, so let me know if that's going to be a problem or not (for you guys. Idrc about getting new readers too much).
          	
          	Catch you guys later!

CrystallizeFlower

"this message may be offensive" YOU'RE OFFENSIVE WATTPAD GO KICK ROCKS
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CrystallizeFlower

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Highkey, chapter 100 has been a struggle, gang. Trying to make it special has also made it this giant wall I have to scale, and I hurt just by existing  how am I gonna climb a WALL
          
          Anyway, I am constantly in surprise at how this story has still gone on. My reader count hasn't changed a lot considering I only update SBHS on Wattpad — should I attempt to crosspost to AO3 so it's also easier for some of you to archive? I personally haven't updated SBHS on ff.net or added it to AO3 just because of the sheer amount of chapters I have to reformat (and also because I try to keep everything untouched other than grammar and/or continuity mistakes which means I'd have to post my author notes and cringe writing from 2017 AHHHHH). Let me know! Especially if you have an idea on how active the MCSM community is on those sites. 
          
          I am also pretty shit at tagging because that's too much thinking outside of writing the stories themselves, so let me know if that's going to be a problem or not (for you guys. Idrc about getting new readers too much).
          
          Catch you guys later!

CrystallizeFlower

"this message may be offensive" YOU'RE OFFENSIVE WATTPAD GO KICK ROCKS
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Natalia_The_Gamer

A lot of us are still here and still waiting we hope you are able to deal with whatever it is causing you trouble, Take your time (I'm really bad at writing nice messages sorry) Good luck! 

CrystallizeFlower

@Natalia_The_Gamer You're always around, thank you for your support <33
            
            I've been having trouble logging back in to Wattpad and every time I try to work on my books, Wattpad kicks me out so I've been trying to figure that when I can apart from my usual work. Sorry for the wait T_T
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CrystallizeFlower

Hello, everyone. Sorry about the really long break *again*. I've been having ~adult~ issues like the spooky stuff called unemployment, lower back pain, and aversion to bills.
          
          In a non-joking way, I'm struggling with life. Just the usual nowadays. Of course, I am still working on my stories, and I'm sorry for sounding like a broken record at this point lol - but that's all I can offer for now. I do not plan to orphan SBHS or any of my other published works at all so I hope this can appease you for the time being.
          
          Thank you all for reading my works and supporting me!

JanWed_XmasJun

Hi, so, uh I don't know if you're currently active but just wanted to thank you for getting me into fandom. SBHS was the first fanfic I ever read, (on fanfic.net btw), and the entire reason I made my original wattpad account was so that I could read the rest of the story that you didn't post on fanfic.net. I am now in tons of fandoms and even though mcsm isn't the most prominent one, it holds a very special place in heart for getting me into fandom in the first place. I adore your writing and think you're super cool. Remember that there is a reason you have followers, it's because we think your awesome! That is the reason I am following you, and that is the reason that even though I know what you are going through, you should remember that there are people that think you are amazing.

CrystallizeFlower

@Logicalityfander This... really means a lot to me. I've had messages like these before but this paragraph really made it apparent on how I affect others and I'm so happy that I have helped people like you this way. This is a great deal to hear during a really difficult time for me. Thank you :,)
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CrystallizeFlower

Hello, everyone. A new chapter for SBHS will be posted sometime this week :)
          
          The rest of this is a little brain dump, so ignore it if you don’t feel like reading.
          
          It’s been hard updating my stories, especially SBHS, in the face of the virus. My cycle has always been post-regularly-for-a-while and then stop-posting-for-months-on-end but this time has actually been different. Life isn’t the same, especially here in Cali where there are a significant amount of cases. I’ve been struggling mentally with my own image, of how I come across to others and to myself during lockdown. Unfortunately, this impedes on true progress I want to make on stories like SBHS because these stories have some kind of introspective aspect of mine in every chapter, minor or major. The tiny perfectionist in me wants these chapters to be perfect in their own way, but I know these will never be perfect. However, that’s why I have the ending copy/paste thing at the end of my chapters: a few sentences about leaving comments and stars. Your input, your criticism, your excitement, your anger - it fuels my own motivation to write and to return the favors you have done for me. Thank you all for reading my stories, even those who don’t comment or star. I appreciate it :)
          
          It’s been a long few years since I started seriously posting my work, and I’m glad you all have journeyed through it with me.