Kyoko!

Hi everyone, im back. My life has gotten a lot better, sorry for being away for so long... ill try to post more chapters when i can.

Hey, update.
          
          Chapter delay by tomorrow, my ex's friend doxxed me. Im scared for my safety lol.

Im back from the dead, expect a new chapter soon

Update, he cut contact with me, chose his friends over me, he hates me, a lot. 
          
          I dont wanna get into detail about it but to put it short it was drama between me and his friends.

Me and my partner broke up. He ended it cause he was not mentally stable enough to keep the relationship going. I loved him very dearly, i still do. Ill never find someone else like him, i dont ever want to replace him with anyone else. He will forever be my first and only love, no matter if he still loves me or not. 
          
          Maybe in another universe we can be together. and maybe in another universe, our trauma wont get in the way of our relationship. 
          
          After he broke up with me i genuinely felt like shit. But i cant blame him, i love him. Id do anything if it meant to make him happy. I just got so attached to him, i admired him so much. He meant everything to me. He stopped me from ending my life more than 2 months ago, i am so greatful to him for that. 
          
          He was genuinely the best boyfriend someone could ever ask for, i wanted to spend my future with him, i wanted to help him with his trauma like he helped me, i feel so guilty. I was stupid, so so stupid.
          
          I will never forgive myself. 
          
          We're still friends, im greatful for that. But the guilty feeling will always haunt me. 
          
          I have no will to live anymore. I am afraid of what i will do to myself. 

Expect the next chapter to be months later, i have reached a point where my mental state only needs one more blow for everything to crumble. Ive never felt so shitty in my life, its genuinely so bad to the point i need to calm myself down with fake scenarios of my loved ones comforting me. It hurts when i realize; they would never go out of their way to do that for me. 
          
          So yeah, sorry im rarely updating this book.. but i genuinely am trying my best to keep this book going. So many people enjoy this AU and watching people want more makes me really wanna keep going with making chapters.
          
          But because of my poor mental health, i wil need to take a little while to get back on my feet. Sorry for venting in this post, i really am in need of any form of reassurance (ill handle it myself.).

New chapter has been released!!!

New chapter almost done! Also im doing a lot better now :)

My fault gang, chapter delayed cause my mental health is so shit atm 

Guhhhh okay guys im getting better, ill try to get the new chapter of my au released by the end of this week