DaggerDarkstar
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I feel certain that I am going completely mad again. There will never be a time when any of what transpired will make sense and I'm at peace with those demons. There does not seem to be a way.
I feel we can't go through anymore of these goddamn terrible times. I'm not going to always be able to recover. And I'm hearing those wretched voices again and I can't fucking concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don't think two people could have been happier 'til this terrible disease came. I can't fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can't even write this properly. I can't read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that – everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you.
Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can't go on spoiling your life any longer. I don't think two people could have been happier than we have been. I sometimes stare into fire or into the night sky alone and wish for a girl or my situation to be different. I also then think why would god who created the beautiful Earth let Humans suffer and act the way they do. But I then realize that god has left you and everyone else a long time ago. This is the reason why I do not live my life for him. Because in the end, the only god who is always guaranteed to call for you by name, is Death.
Cyre_Street
@DaggerDarkstar for Every Trial, Every Tribulation, every storm which contains a Dagger, there is always hope. I hope you Effortlessly Transform for Eons To come my friend
