things have been getting bad. i was really happy with myself, but now i'm at a new school and i just moved, and things are hard right now. i'm really trying, but i feel like i'm falling back in a bad, depressed state. one that i used to be stuck in. i don't want to be, i want to be happy and i want everyone to be happy. my family is falling apart and i'm just not ready for anything. all i want to do is cry all the time. i'm trying to write, i really am. i have ideas but i feel like i'm just in a rough patch and i'm doing terrible at writing. i hope you guys forgive me, i'm trying. love you guys:)