Deadlywarriorassasin

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@Deadlywarriorassasin Yay and You okay?
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Hey guys. I wanted to hear some opinions but I was thinking about doing either a Gacha life video and post on YouTube or write a story and post on YouTube. I already read fan fiction on my YouTube account but I was curious what you guys like to see on there. If people start to answer I’ll put it on my YouTube account which is Madison Blackstock. There’s a few Madison Blackstock’s but my account is the one with some hands and a baby chinchilla in the pick.( if you don’t know what a chinchilla is just look for a grey looking bunny/squirrel. But yeah I’d like to hear what you guys think. If you have any different suggestions I’d love to hear them.

Deadlywarriorassasin

@Ocassional_Writer That’s true but I’m pretty undecided but I think writing and reading a story would take much less time to do. I just wanted to hear some ideas and opinions on stuff like this
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(Part one of my rant) Hey everyone, I know this is random and I’m also sorry I haven’t been on lately. I’ve been distracted with other things and to be honest forgot about wattpad. I just wanted to put something random on here, to let out my feelings. I normally help other people and I felt like I could share stuff with you guys. So, I was recently watching some sad videos and some heartwarming ones too. And they just got me super emotional and made me start thinking about just some sad and happy things. I’ve seen videos of people with their boyfriends/girlfriends or talking to their crushes and I started to feel sad because I’ve always wanted one but... I’ve always acted like I was disgusted by kiss scenes and lovey dovey stuff and I’m actually known in my class for hating romance. The sad thing is I am one of those people who will act as if I’ll never want romance but all the gagging and hiding my face at kiss scenes is not because I hate love........... I’m jealous. My heart aches when i see strangers in the street holding hands and laughing or being happy together. I’m jealous because I never had a real crush before because I knew they would never like me back. I’m jealous because I listen to people talk about their types and how they want to have someone to cuddle and kiss with but I don’t say anything because I feel embarrassed. I never talk about my feelings, I never talk about boys, I never admit that a guy or girl is cute or hot, I never fawn over stuff like other girls.

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(Part two of my rant) BUT I WANT TO!! I want to fall in love, I want to kiss and cuddle with someone! I’m not affectionate because I never tried hugging or holding hands with friends. I realized all of this when a friend of mine (a girl) grabbed my hand and we walked around ,after teasing my sister and another friend , to look for a ride. And I felt so happy, so giddy and I felt butterflies in my stomach because I’ve never ha that affection (not because of family stuff. My family is awesome and I love them). I rarely hug my family, my sister doesn’t even like affection but all this to say that I’m not who I pretend to be. Most of how I act is the real me but everything and how I act about love to everyone else is not the real me. I just pretend even if I want to talk about boys or fictional characters I find hot. I’m scared to change how I act and people I care about, friends and family, will just ask “what did you to do our friend/family/my real name?” I want to change but I’ve been acting like this my whole life that it’s who I’m known to be for everyone in my life. Like heck! I’ve never had a boyfriend  or my first kiss! Anyways, I’m sure I bored you to death with my love life so you can leave. You have more important stuff to do. But if you ever need to talk about how you feel I’m more than open to talk here or on an app that I can use pms since mine don’t work here. Sorry for wasting your time with something that doesn’t concern you at all. Again sorry for not being on for the ppl I rp with and sorry for my random unimportant rant.
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