@Deimeons_Person2
HOLY MOTHER OF SHIT I FORGOT IT'S BAMBI'S BIRTHDAY TODAY UHHHHHH
I should really start posting more normal stuff instead of the angsty vent shit yall prob didn't really care abt at all AJSNSKSK
How did I make 9 vent arts in a year that's an irregular amount for me lol
NGL, discord is like that one app I both love and hate, I love it bcuz I can join servers that based on the things I like and stuff BUUUTTT I hate it becuz some ppl on that app makes me uncomfortable and I have my limit on things
THERES GOTTA BE THAT ONE PERSON WHO ACTUALLY SOMEHOW MOTIVATED ME TO EVEN DRAW ANYTHING DNB RELATED (we all know who :3)
Why am I just finding out that there is custom brushes that I can literally just install instead of using their QR codes VRO WHY AM I THIS STUPID AND BLIND ASF
Is it considered obsession if I literally have a bambi board on Pinterest :pensive: (I'm not even kidding i have a full on board full of bambi photos)
How much vent art am i gonna make this year DIQHSRRJNDKSN
(!!!! VENT !!!!)
At this point, the moment I went on the internet for the first time is probably the reason why I am the way I am now. The amount of gross fetish and sexual videos I got exposed to at the FUCKING age of 7 really made my mindset and childhood ruined. I just want to actually live my childhood and have the energy to study normally instead of fucking reading SMUTSHOTS at age 9. I hate how it's also probably the reason why I was so hypersexual back then, and the reason it was worsened is because of the smutfics I saw on wattpad. Although this is one of the places I'm the most active on, that doesn't mean that this is also the place I've been traumatized the most to, and also dont forget about youtube since that's what started my r34 addiction in the first place anyways.
Btw just so you know, I genuinely don't know how to say and vent about personal stuff like this because i'm really quiet and secretive with my mental health problems (especially irl) like honestly—even my FAMILY doesn't know how fucked up I am rn.
I'm actually scared that my old ahh r34 addiction (that I had when I was like VERY YOUNG) would literally comeback THIS year—LIKE FUCK NAUR I AINT GOING BACK TO THAT DISTURBING RABBIT HOLE OF A FUCKED CHILDHOOD