♤Ali♤

I cant so this anymore...
          
          I did it again...

So I have this friend let's call her Rea. She's super nice, kind, sweet all of the above. And today is math my math teacher called her my best friend. And im not saying that's a bad thing but ive never really considered anyone my best friend since me and one of my friends that I was like super super close too cut ties in the fall 

If anyone wants to talk to me im open for conversations! (I lowkey just wanna talk to someone)

First competition in 2 weeks!!

Just over 3 weeks clean :)

1 week clean :) 

I smile because I dont want anyone to ask me what's wrong. Its easier that way. People see the smile and assume everything is fine. No awkward questions. No forced explanation. No pity looks. Just act normal. Because explaining how you really feel takes energy you dont have. And truth be told not everyone understands. So you wear the smile like armor convincing everyone that you're okay. But deep down you're tired. Caring invisible weights nobody sees. Navigating battles that dont show on the surface. And you keep smiling not because your happy but because it's the only way you'll make it through the day. 
          

Happy new year...2026...
          
          
          
          yay...

I cant do this shit anymore 

Merry Christmas.