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I wish I could show my art on here but a lot of my art is characters for a project I'm mapping out and shit-
          	
          	Maybe I'll do agere/petre art sometime with some characters of mine that aren't connected to my project?- 
          	
          	Or I'll give up and do it anyways-

EM0T10N4LC0RPSE

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I wish I could show my art on here but a lot of my art is characters for a project I'm mapping out and shit-
          
          Maybe I'll do agere/petre art sometime with some characters of mine that aren't connected to my project?- 
          
          Or I'll give up and do it anyways-

EM0T10N4LC0RPSE

YO!
          
          Ao3 account is active now! I'm writing a series there called Another Time! It's been a huge brainrot of mine for so long now and I'd appreciate if you gave it a look! It's a past au of how Quackity and Schlatt met! I'm still working on the first official chapter but the prologue is up now! 
          
          My ao3 @ is G3ND3R_DY5PH0R14_D0GB0Y !
          
          Please make sure to read the note on the work as well please ty! :]
          
          And a big ty to anyone that does decide to read!! I will post more works sometime that are other brainrots there as well in the future if i have more!

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I just wasted 2 hours of my life on twitter reading through dsmp drama, fanart, tinza, people freaking out over the face reveal, neph being everywhere, seeing that tubbo is trending again knowing it's all /neg comments, people defending sapnap (as they should), moments from the Name Your Price from yesterday, and splatoon (I don't even play nor understand the game but Ranboo's addicted)
          
          I had to force myself to close twitter before I wasted away for another 2 hours :']

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Hello those on wattpad, i have a question for you related to relationships, polyamourus ones. So I've started going to a different school than my last one leaving behind my SO and friends from that school but i still live in the area. My SO is poly and I'm still questioning if I even am anymore since I've only really been dating my SO since around I'd say April making me  heavily attached to my SO relationship wise. My SO a couple weeks ago asked if they'd be able to date another person while with me that is in our friend group, even though I knew my jealousy would be a bastard with the thought of not being able to be close with my SO like their crush I still said yes, I only really cared about their happiness, I told myself I could deal with the jealousy later. 
          
          Time skip to Saturday and I was taken to homecoming by them. It was meant to be fun and stuff and hang out with them and my friends but the main area was too overwhelming for me and i friend i missed a lot, being kinda like a mother-like friend so i wanted to just be in an area that i wouldn't get overstimulated in like i had in the past dance we went to and that one time at a festival.
          
          They wanted me to dance with them at one point but I knew that it would be too loud and hot for me so i tried to ask them to stay outside instead. They then asked in the group chat for me to dance with them but I had the group chat muted so I didn't get a notification at all (it's muted cause there was 10 or 11 of us in the group chat causing my phone to lag often from the notifications.

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I asked then to stay outside with me again only for them to get angry with me. Another one of our friends who'd stay by my SO's side of the situation no matter what then got upset with me for staying with a friend that missed a lot. I then tried to talk to my SO about it only for me to not know what to say, i then got yelled at for staying with my friend for at least 30 minutes outside, not remembering their problems with trust, and to not stay inside where i'd get overstimulated to dance which I had done for the first 30 minutes to an hour before things got too much for me. 
            
            If I knew what to say I would have apologized for being a sad excuse for a man and ask for forgiveness, which i did ask for forgiveness even if the words were bitter to say. I just wanted to spend time with friends that i missed but things went south so quickly.
            
            I tried my hardest to not cry because I didn't feel like i deserved the sympathy for it. I was also blamed for the friend i spent time with yelling at them after my SO yelled at them first. I don't know what to do cause I haven't been messaged since that night even though at the end things for some reason were ok, they just went back to normal? 
            
            Idk what to do honestly, Should i apologize again or what? I never really handled conflict well due to my family life but thats a lot to talk about some other time. 
            
            I feel as though it's all my fault but idk anymore. Things have just felt odd I guess, it's hard not being able to talk to them face-to-face anymore. I really fucking miss them also, I just feel like I'm not of much use for them anymore since we can't see each other as often. It doesn't help that they've also got a new crush which just makes me feel like I'm not enough, poly or not. 
            
            This all just fucking sucks tbh, You can give your thoughts in the comments below if you'd like
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