You know, I've just had this one thought. About...just general stuff, ya know? About my terrible writings that I'm always tempted to just SSSCHCHCH out of existence. This is just me yelling into the void, not really expecting an answer. Not me "Woe is me, my work is simply so horrid. It must cease" no, I don't like it just because I've grown and gotten better. But I get constantly reminded about when I wrote my first fanfic. About just how... FUN it was! It was so fun to sit there and write. I'd publish multiple chapters in one day! Now I just feel...sad...about the fact I can't. Sure, the quality of my writing has improved, but how does it matter if-- well if I never make anything?
Actually if I think back... My first fanfic was a Cross X Reader one-- god I hate thinking back on it. But the basic story was... that the reader fell into the underground... was turned into a neko...then was capable of leaving...now she works as a maid-- I HATE IT- I HATE IT. No offense to anyone writing about neko maids, go cat girls! But my execution...
The second-- really putting my shame into words on the internet, wow someone is really gonna find some dirt on me, sheesh.
The second was a Dust X Reader one about a maid--of course
that starts out without any feelings then gains them-- then she's the daughter of a goddess--travels back in time--I think? I don't have these stories saved anywhere I can't check.
Third was a X-tale!Chara X reader one that I do remember the name of. "Teenage Heart". It's thing was that Chara was--well you know how he'd just float around Cross? Yeah-- but with the reader-- I know mindfuck wow.
The fourth? TADAAAA! DISASTER! the one I have the displeasure of still having access to. Though it was a lot different back then. I hate this, but this is for the better.
AND WHAT'S WORSE!? I GAVE THE READERS NAMES--not that I mind when anyone else does that- no no. Just me, I shouldn't.
The ones I can remember were... "Yin Lin" "Luna"(?) and "Alie"
yea..