Ella<3

I miss you guys

How is everyone?  Its been a while...

I’m saying this in confidence and maybe I’m being too much. 
          
          I have been dabbling in the Christian religion; 
          Going to church with friends, listening to worship music with my mom (she’s recently converted to Christianity), seeking god in little things. 
          I feel as if Christianity won’t accept me as I’m a pansexual/ genderfluid person. 
          
          I don’t agree with the forcing of rules and regulations other Christians are strict about in the media although I do understand their want to preach and pray for others. 
          
          I understand that my relationship with god (or lack there of atm), is personal and sacred but I’m scared that I will be judged for expressing my interest or want to dabble in it. 
          
          I get that it’s not something to mess with (obviously) but I just feel as though to believe I have to be fully devoted. 
          
          -A

Facebook has been really depressing the last two days between Charlie Kirk’s assassination and 9/11 stuff, I just pray for our country and the people who have lost someone in these two tragic events, my heart goes out to all of them especially Mrs Kirk who now has to explain to her two very young kids why their dad isn’t here. It’s just sad all around and I’m praying our country can sort its problems out peacefully because no one deserves to die for the opinions and beliefs and the people who are celebrating his death are a serious problem and concern for our country

Hey girl. I just want to say that I am forever and always thankful to you for helping me start on my religious journey. It honestly has helped me so much.

There’s a bunch of sticker residue on my Stanley, I was trying to get it off and I think I scratched my cup up and now I’m super sad and stressed about it because I really like my cup and I just got it for my birthday and im super frustrated, what do I do??? It’s a special sparkly one 

So…Sunday the 20th was my birthday! I turned 16!!! And I totally forgot to post LOL happy late birthday to me

2 days into VBS and I already have the songs stuck in my head!!! I love getting to help my church (I’m also so tired)

I have had such a big headache all day cause of the bad weather that was rolling in it’s the worsttt plus I’ve been emotional cause it’s almost that time of the month

I turn 16 in July, and that is one of the SCARIEST THOUGHTS! Because that means in 2 years. I’ll be an adult, and that is scary for, because I don’t know what I want to do for a job. All I’ve ever known about my future is that I want to be a mom, a stay at home mom, I want to stay home and raise my kids. I don’t want to have some big career. I want my main focus to be 1, God, 2, my husband, and 3, my children. But what am I gonna do before I have kids??? Nothing has ever really stood out to me as something I want to do in life besides being a wife and mother