@Emycantliferight
Hey my guys this isn’t anything super important but I thought I would let y’all know that I’m going to a convention! Only tomorrow and it’s not like I have a panel just going as a fan with a friend of mine. I also may have a chance to meet two of my favorite actors John Barrowman and Catherine Tate from doctor who and get pictures with them so that’s super exciting! So yeah though I’d just inform y’all of what I was doing. So yeah
Carter: if they need a dollar I can donate a dollar (talking about a friend of mine who wants to buy a panel room at our local comic con which if you didn’t know is expensive)
Me: just a dollar?
Carter: Well I have a little over a dollar
PSA: I made a friend with a like 5-6 year old lil girl who carried a little puppy toy with a pink bow around his neck around with her and she was so sweet she just talked about what ever she thought of and we played the grass is lava and had to hop from stone to stone and long story short I recommend that everyone make friends with small children because my mental state has been improved by so much just by hanging out with her, even though I know that this burst of happiness will be short lived I will cherish it for the ten minutes it continues to persist
Guess who’s dumb stupid and absolutely worthless butt is crying again because of a YouTube video. I’m sorry I’m even talking about this, there are so many other people out there with worse problems than mine. So I shouldn’t complain about my problems because compared to other people’s they are nothing and I’m just some pathetic high schooler who can’t deal with her own emotions and anxiety and all the thoughts that just run amuck in my mind. I can’t even go a few days without some minor problem that sends me over the edge and turns me in to some stupid fucking mess. I’m just wasting all of your time and energy with everything I do. I’m causing all of these issues for people I love who don’t deserve any of it. And now I’m just complaining on the internet being a fucking nuisance to people I don’t even know because some part of me knows I need to talk with people and stop being alone with just my thoughts but I can’t talk to anyone I actually know because I just cant bring myself to let them know how I feel and break this illusion that I’m perfect and fine and happy. I shouldn’t even exist I’m just a waste of space who’s pretending to be some thing she isn’t. Pretending to have some sort of purpose when she knows full and well that no matter what she does nothing will be better for her and she’ll just keep being the cause of all of these problems for everyone. So she should give up this elaborate disguise shes worked so hard to keep up. I’m just a fucking mess and I’m sorry to even bother who ever sees this and I’m sorry you wasted your time on my worthless and insignificant problems and emotions.
Do not call yourself worthless in any form or way! You exist, therefore you are meaningful. You can’t compare yourself to other people because everyone’s living situation is different and it’s impossible to compare. And wasting our time and energy? No way! I will gladly put my energy towards talking to you and showing that I care for you in so many ways, even if we barely talk. To me, that is far from a waste of energy.
It may be hard to open up to people, but I hope you find someone who can talk to you either in person or online. I myself know what it feels like to keep up the image that I’m happy all the time. And I would be more than willing to listen to you whether you’re happy or sad. You are loved by everyone who follows you. Your problems and concerns are just as valued as anyone else’s. <3
@Emycantliferight I’m sorry that I didn’t reply, I fell asleep. I’m still down to talk if you still need it tho
@WHERESMYMUFFIN You wouldn’t mind if I pm you maybe? I’m just having a lot of problems and want to talk with people even though every fiber of my being is screaming at me to not so I won’t be a nuisance. So if you don’t mind could I?
Today I’ve cried quite a lot. And for once it wasn’t over something stupid and insignificant.
Today I cried for France and I cried for the people there who have lost something so important to their history and to the city of Paris. I cried for the Notre Dame Cathedral that went up in flames today and for everything lost in the fire that to my knowledge will burn for days more due to the rubble of the roof that caved in.
But I’m glad not every thing was destroyed, I believe that fire fighters were able to recover some of what the Cathedral held. The two towers in the front are still intact as well, the bells they hold still secure. I’m so extremely happy that, as far as I know, no one was seriously injured or died, that at the very least this fire was after Notre Dame closed and everyone left.
Today I cried. I cried for France, for Paris, and for all the people who lost an important part of their history today. A part of history they will never be able to recover.
@Emycantliferight It made me more angry than sad at first, but now I just feel kind of helpless. It sucks. This sucks. That's history, gone, never to be the same. I wish I could be there to see it in person, because it just doesn't seem fit to say goodbye from such a distance.
@Emycantliferight Yeah, I almost cried in history class today because our history teacher talked about it for a few minutes at the beginning of class. I was in shock really, it was horrible news to hear that. Today I grieve for France, Paris, and all the memories lost within that fire.
why can’t i just like...........hug sounds............cuz like...........sounds...............make ME happy................and hug make............PEOPLE happy..............so I want to make SOUNDS happy
♥-Beautiful Person Award...Send this to 10 people who you think deserve it. Nothing will happen if you break this chain, but it's nice to know there's someone who cares and thinks you're beautiful inside and out-♥
Guess who just threw up again. Bright side I feel better than before bad news is that I feel bad again later. Isn’t being sick just the best.
Nobody:
My fire alarms: Beep Beep Beep Fire Fire Fire Beep Beep Beep Fire Fire Fire
Is it at all possible to throw myself away