No one has to see this but I need to put it somewhere.
Recently I started dating this person...and there are times where they can be a huge jerk and just down right nasty. But I love them somehow. And I’m afraid at the same time...they said they were abusive to their last partner, and I can see some of it through our texts. Don’t get me wrong, they’re kind and always there for me but I don’t know if I’ll be safe.
Listening to my gut...I would need to break up with him and get as far away as possible. My gut is telling me if I keep being this close to him I’m going to get murdered. And...my gut is almost never wrong. I don’t want to hurt anyone including myself.
But just letting y’all know, if I get murdered, it was my boyfriend in in the time of Sunday, November 22, 2020. Closest lead. Just leaving that here.
(And if I do get murdered and if some detective finds this, I have their address in my notes app, house purchase in 2016....ignore the locked note..it’s uhm...*coughs*)
And if my mental illness has gotten me so far to this point and I don’t get murdered, hi, good job past me.
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How did you survive.