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❝But oh the cruelty of the memories that won't die and a heart that never stops feeling.❞ 

❝I can feel my heartbeat drop, an uncanny feeling settling in. As I ponder upon the good times, what lies in the goodbyes? I can't remember the last time I truly felt alive nor the reason for my deadly demise.❞ 

❝This strange melancholy is taking over me, I no longer desire human relations nor interactions. As if there's no real place that my heart can call home. This feeling lurks in my heart, a strange sickening feeling that just won't go away.❞ 

❝It is possible that when you return my beloved autumn,
          I may not be I, and you may not be you.❞ 

❝I'm a stranger in my own messed up world. I say I know myself the best but there are nights where I stay awake thinking what I could have done better. It's like I don't know who I am, what I look like or what this prejudice is.❞ 

❝This constant ache in my chest, is something I'm no longer a stranger with, though it doesn't go away but keeps lingering as a needle stabbing slowly. Oh this excruciating pain is making me numb, please God what is the medicine. Oh tell him, the one who I once loved dearly, this lover of him doesn't seek him anymore. This agony he bound me to, even he can't cure anymore. For I'm just a hallow of who I once used to be, with nothing but pain flowing in me.❞