One Tough Cookie

I miss one girl's pure love and affection.
          I miss her pure ingenuity and kindness.
          I miss another girl's innocence and laughter, with her bubbly self.
          The first one went away, saying she 'needed new space.'
          The other was morphed and twisted into a modern day 'woman', seeking false love.
          I miss them both so dearly that letting go is an impossible feat

Sorry if I twisted a knife in your back.
          Sorry if I lied right in your face.
          Sorry if I gave you the wrong message.
          Sorry if I pushed too hard on all your wounds
          Sorry if I made a mistake so bad that it stings for years.
          Sorry if I fucked up your life worse than it already was.

I just want to sleep, is that all I can ask? I'm not hungry, thirsty, deprived, none of that. I just want to sleep. 

I don't understand how one simple change in my life can just destroy the rest of it. It baffles me how I can go from being on top of the world to carrying it like Atlas, it's like my life is just bipolar, it's constantly never standing still,  it moves from success to failure in a heartbeat. I just don't understand...

Hi aiden this is a second account of mine, follow it tooooooo