Hi I like writing and reading fan fiction but thing is I tend to have trouble keeping friends for I tend to have them always turn against me probably cause I'm a friendless loser. So I have a harder time trusting others I am a huge fan of SSB Kingdom Hearts Kid Icarus Uprising and a lot of other things I have a cockatiel named Pecky, a budgie names Alfie had another before Nemo but she sadly escaped and a labradoodle named Luna and yeah I also tend to make videos. Also very suicidal idk I'm surprised I haven't done it yet, hopefully soon though I will.

I have attachment/trust issues too cause of everything that's happened and I, umm tend to jump to conclusions that I'm hateable and that no one will ever accept or like me. And that when they do it's all an act then they show their true colours or how they truly feel and hurt me emotionally. Unless deep in my heart I feel the truth that they do like me, this rarely happens though. But when it does they rarely stay and I know it's part of life that they leave but whenever they do it's forever and I never see them again. (No not death but one time yes and same with a family member) I am very self loathing of myself, I mostly feel like since last year of high school my mental health is really bad, wanting to just end my life, wanting nothing to do with relationships, still a tiny bit wanting to make friends but mostly not at the same time. I kinda feel there's something wrong with someone if they like me. 


Things I tend to think/believe about myself: I'm unlikeable, no one will ever accept me for my true self, that's why I don't show much about me or much emotions when I first meet someone. There's nothing to love/like about me, I fail at everything, I'm the weakest out of my whole family. 




So yeah who needs me? Exactly no one does. Still trying to find my place in this world but I know that will never happen.