Flyynt

Just an update: I would like to be called Flyynt as of now (he/they+neos)

Hi :)))
          I'm doing fine:)))
          Totally not having a fun start to my day :))))))
          
          
          Fun things that have happened and it's not even 10am
          
          -dad blocked Pinterest out of the blue
          -The Period: day two
          -cramps
          -nausea
          -dehydrated
          -whats sleep :)
          -its Sunday so back to the Cult in a lil bit :)))
          -depresso thoughts
          -older bro talking shit about girls/women/basic human decency
          -mom telling me I can't wear skirts if I don't shave cause it looks gross seeing the leg hair (don't you dare shave anything else tho cause that's horrible) and if I don't shave my legs then I have to wear a dress (I don't like the feel or the way they look on me so I never wear them)
          -My mom: go to church
          
          Me: no <3
          
          Mom: why
          
          Me: I don't believe in what you believe in and I am also srsly not feeling good pls let me stay home
          
          Mom: DONT DISRESPECT YOUR MOTHERRRRR
          
          Me: ...I'm just trying to have a normal conversation?? I'm?? Sorry?? If you feel disrespected??? But?? Just because I have different beliefs than you?? Doesn't mean I'm being disrespectful??????
          
          Mom: LisTeN tO tHE SpIRiT
          
          Me: oh you mean the lil thoughts in people's heads saying to do stuff like human decency
          
          Mom: some people call it their conscience, some call it human decency but it COME from the LIGHT of C H R I S T
          
          Me: well that sucks cause mine's telling me to do some stuff that's not healthy :) guess I have to listen to it cause it's the holy Spirit :))
          
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          Like bro: *comes in cause why not* what u talking bout
          
          Mom: SO UH HOW ARE YOUR DRAWINGS :) THEY LOOK NICE :)) WHICH ONE'S YOUR FAVORITE :))) YEAH UH-HUH NICE :)))))
          
          
          
          
          Ha ha :)))))
          
          
          
          
          I need a hug

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          ....just wanna say I'm not dead ✌️

I am about to board a plane- I'M SO NERVOUS HELP THIS IS MY FIRST TIME FLYING BY MYSELF

You take book recommendations? Warrior cats

I feel sad and guilty
          My friend/crush was super tired and I offered to let them rest but they didn't and then they didn't really eat that much (we were at a church activity earlier tonight and there was food) and then they accidentally knocked their plate (with some of their food on still on it) off the table and so we cleaned it off the ground with our mutual friend (calling her Ros cause that's her nickname) and I asked if they wanted me to get them some more food and they were just like "no I'm fine" and like on the inside I was like "but you look kinda sad and that was your fricking food are you ok" but on the outside (cause I'm a stupid head with absolutely 0 braincells) just asked a few more times if they were sure cause I had no problem getting more food for them and I fucking didn't get her more food and sat back down because yeah I'm an idiot.
          And like they just seemed like they weren't really in a good mood and I wanted to make them feel better and smile but I dunno I felt like it wasn't really enough.
          And when she left with her younger sibling she seemed sorta annoyed and I sorta feel like maybe I'm why she wasn't happy but like at the same time I'm wondering if something else is going on with her and her family that she didn't tell me about
          FUCK what if she doesn't trust me cause like she didn't even tell me they were moving away and like aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
          Aaffnfjfjeif i'm a failure in life
          And like I can't really talk to them outside of church activities that happen once a week and her parents still haven't given her phone back to her and we've been talking a little bit on an online game we both have but like she got her iPad taken away (and I'm assuming that's where they are able to go on the game) because she took it to school for one day to show a friend what drawings she's been working on and her parents were like "WHERE'S YOUR IPAD." when she got home and like AAAAAAAAAAATJFHFHGJFJFFJ I've decided I don't like her parents very much.

Hi

Guess who just outed themselves to their mom!!!!
          
          
          
          
          
          My lobster!! :D
          
          
          
          
          No, I'm kidding. I don't even have a lobster.
          
          I told my mom today that I'm pan and non-binary and that I wanted to use they/them pronouns. It.. wasn't super bad, actually. She still thinks being lgbtq+ is a choice and a sin against Heavenly Father and that I should let a little bit of me open for him to enter in or something like that. But she wanted to know how to best support me "and my journey". So it wasn't super bad. She did say that later this month, she was thinking of inviting my friends over, but that since now she knows I'm pan and nb, she's not super sure how my friends' parents would feel, but so yeah. 

Today's episode of My Asshole of a Brother:
          
          Me: *is getting more impatient, anxious, and pretty depressed by the day*
          
          Me, at dinner: *mentions a struggle of mine*
          
          Brother: *rolls eyes* oh please
          
          Me: excuse me?
          
          Brother: you're acting so depressed. 'oh boo-boo, I'm sad! I don't feel like living anymore and everyone's against me and my feewings are huwt. I don't wanna eat anymore'
          
          Me: oh are you referring to the time when you told me I couldn't eat dinner because I was trying not to use my pocketknife on anything because he *points at a younger brother sitting next to me* told me to kill myself?
          
          Dad: let's just move on- mom, say prayer
          
          
          
          
          
          And no one talked about it ever again✨

Just found out my best friend is moving...yay...