Sorry about not updating my stories recently, I just been feeling not happy and more like I didn't give a crap about myself. I recently broke up with my boyfriend who was controlling and abusive and also dealing with the fact that my mother abandoned me and my younger siblings for some douchebag who knew she had a family. I'm also going to a therapist as my dad signed me up after I told him about me being depressed and having suicidal thoughts. So yeah sorry about not updating or posting.