Its a long one, if you wanna read it you may or u can just ignore it.
Being in the Gray area --
Sometimes you're stuck between 'who you were' and 'who you are.' It's like you're always struggling to be 'who you wanna be?' There's always the gray area in between these two black and white situations, and people don't tend to realise how their critism effects your mind so much. People are always wanting you to be either the black, or the white, they never really understands that you want to be both of it. People just want us to change according to them and we always wants to be the mix of everything according to them. And that's how, we lose our sparks. And when we're trying to show the ways we love to be or the way we are? They never complies with it.
We all know that people got smiles on their faces but their bitter-sweet lies hurts us the most.
While being in "the gray area" we almost loses our sparks, and thats how we loses our true identity. We used to be confident once, but not anymore. We loses the way we used to be, and later when try to come back? When we try return or gain our lost spark back? We simply don't know how to do it.
Despite all of that what people has always told us that we would never be enough? It has affected us. It does affets us, despite of all the things that we've gone through or still has been going, or will perhaps go through. But people will still NOT leave a wound being untouched by telling you or giving you eyes saying that 'you're not enough still.'
That lost confidence leaves a mark on you and it gets hard to gain that confidence back sometimes. Too hard, after going through A LOT of emotional and mental survival already.
