1)You're clearly a person who is willing to explore themselves and find the truth (vs. wanting to lie to self, just agree and not care, etc). That is very good! Always keep digging! 2) "When you don't feel like writing... write! That's how I got some of my best poems!" (Tom Lee Smith, published writer of more than a dozen poetry books and my friend). Keep writing! One gets better only by continuing to do so. And I think you have real potential! I can see that you feel deeply, and acknowledge your feelings. However, when it comes to the poems, I think you could go deeper! There's clearly deep emotion, and it's general existence is clearly implied... but readers must search for it, (which is good... if they don't have to search hopelessly), and the thing is they will base their search on own mood, and might never reach the heart and soul of the poem. 3) Oh yeah, I also left a few comments and feedback on your poems. XD Overall, just keep practicing and feeling!