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I’ll always wonder and it’ll always hurt.

Reddit pmo. Comments about people violating the Palestinians, being in favor of the genocide aren’t flagged but me saying I won’t be nice to a zio gets me banned for 3 whole days? Everywhere you go, it’s infested with zio propaganda it’s actually insane. 
          
          

I learnt late in my life that you can also grieve circumstances and not just people. Grief is weird. It’s like you think you won’t pass by the same place but you do and suddenly the clock ticks backward and you see yourself in said place and what could’ve been. 
          
          The lump in your throat grows bigger, your eyes sting and your chest starts to feel tighter. & then you realize that some part of you will always wonder & that haunts you more than anything - the feeling of knowing that it still affects you when you thought you had moved on. 
          
          Grief is constant I suppose. In the back of your mind, the memories, the attachment are all shoved in a small tiny box. From time to time, it’ll peek through. Voluntarily or involuntarily. It’ll eat at you. It’ll tear and pain you. But it’s also bittersweet ; like staring at a room full of bits and pieces of past you, the days you spent laughing, making the bestest of memories, secrets shared and then your gaze spills to the room next to you and it’s the present you, with new faces, new places and another whole world.
          
          In between, is you. lingering between the pull of the past and the scent of the present. Both feel warm yet suffocating. and then the clock ticks, you put one foot in front of the other, forcing yourself to face forward, to not peek, but one turn of your head and your resolve just crumbles.
          
          One peek you say. One last time you whisper and then you realize as long as you enable yourself to walk back into your footsteps, the door to the past will always open. The band-aids rips open and wound gushes blood, again. 
          
          ‘Grief is weird’, you ponder. ‘Will the door ever close?’ and the question remains.

Unfortunately (or fortunately), if you fw either one of my parents, I will hold a grudge & I’ll remember the disrespect, every.single.time. 

Where are there soo many stories romanticizing cheating on this app? why would you make the FL get back with the cheating mmc, knowing well that, that man never respected her or loved her enough & that cheating is js another form of abuse. This js screams internalized misogyny to me. 

Btw, any kdrama fans here? :>

None of my friends are single. Genuinely, where are y’all finding these men? I think I’ll surprise myself the day i fall in love. & For my girlies reading this, may y’all love last both in this world & the next. <3

Y’all does the phrase “i thought of you while sleeping with her,” make some swoon? bc why are we writing this in books? No genuinely, um, poor women. this isn’t cute. wdym, “i was in love with you the whole time i was sleeping with her,” ???? Get outta here.
          
          

Gimme good Grovel books. No, don’t give me cheaters trying to walk their way back into the fmc’s like & like they end up together. Yeah, no thanks. Could be on & off wattpad either.

I’m not even ashamed when I say someone ( if I could, I actually would) needs to hire a sniper to finish off the man who married one of my aunts. 18 years of horror y’all. to start off, he’s a pedophile, a rapist, a domestic abusive bastard & a serial cheater. Tried to kill his own wife & children. The day that mf actually dies is the day I’ll throw a party.