currently writing this at 2:30 am.
so no one tells you how scary some things in life are.
like heck i can tolerate pain. Emotional, physical, mental, you name it. Ive been through it.
And in stressful situations, im in my game. I can focus, and do the right thing.
but after, i shut down.
i break.
no, i shatter.
this is really hard to talk about because it makes me feel uncomfortable things.
my best friend of over 7 years just had a seizure right next to me. Thats not something anyone should have to experience, but it was a little less bad because of my sister, who also has epilepsy. I did everything right. I alerted her parents, I made sure she was safe.
so why do i feel so powerless?
why
why do i feel like i could’ve done more?
why.
