Travelling through a midlife existential crisis. I am clumsily picking my way through a forest of all I thought I believed in , after refusing the path well lit, least travelled or the goat trail. Preferring to make my own path to learn something new and take in some different views. I have discovered so much about myself in the years since 2021 especially. What I write is largely about this journey. My intention is to have this publicly available because I was unable to find guidance in the direction I was going , and it was daunting . I want others choosing their own way to know it's possible.