HeroTechmo Gaming

I miss her

What else am I supposed to do? This isn't me giving up, I just don't want to be in so much pain every fucking day amymore. I wish she wasn't taking it the way she is. 

I can't keep trying to hold on. I can't keep freaking out at the idea of her finding someone else or feeling like I'll never have another chance. I'm...going to unfollow her. I'm sorry. 

I....think this is the end of my online diary. I can't keep looking at her post on Tumblr like a creep because every time I do it stabs me in the heart and then I can't sleep or think about anything else (more than usual). It's time to lock my feelings in a safe and put it in the ground. It's what's best...

I know it's just going to hurt me when the time does come. No matter what, I'll have my hopes up, and when she doesn't choose me to go with...oof. 

Maybe she'll just go with her old friend or one of the boys this summer. Maybe I was just a little dumb to think that maybe she would take me. 

Why did she accept my friend request on twitch as well. 

Why the hell was she on twitch...

Ouch

I don't want to live amymore
          Why do I have to feel like this all of the time?
          Why do other people always get to be happy and find things that make them happy, but not me?
          Why do other people get to keep the people they love and care about?
          Why was I put on this earth as Scott Fleury