Lillith/Lacey/Lucas

Cheers to another lackluster birthday... Happy birthday to me ig :/

It's been two days since the one year anniversary of my online friend disappearing. 
          
          We were close, we made jokes together and were constantly messaging each other on discord and I... I really miss her. She even invited me to a group chat with some of her other friends, and it was just so  to have people to talk to who really got me. 
          
          One day, I say the group chat disappear from my list on discord, I messaged her about it to ask what happened but never got a response. I even reached out to some of the people from the old group, even though I really hate starting conversations with people I don't know, I'm too awkward to keep a conversation... But I tried, because I was worried about her and I really wanted her to be okay, I was hoping that she'd just be playing a cruel trick on me or something. 
          
          A few days later, her account got deleted on discord, and so did her account on here, and I haven't heard from her since. Sometimes, I message her old account just so I can kind of be close to her again, tell her what's been happening in my life since she's been gone. I'll never know what happened to her, never know if she's okay or even alive, and there will always be a part of me that hopes she is. 
          
          But I don't think she's coming back. 
          
          To anyone who reads this, I'm sorry you have to read my stupid ranting, but I needed to say this somewhere and if I put it onto paper my parents might find it, so... I'm writing it here. 
          
          To my friend, I'm glad I got to get to know you. I'm glad I got to be a part of the 'chaos team' with you, and I hope wherever you are now that you're happy, and that somehow you can see this and know I miss you. Goodbye,  my friend, because I would love to say I'll see you later but I think we both know that I won't. I hope you're in a better place now <3

Not me being awake at 2am rn when I need to get up at 6am tomorrow for school (Tʖ̯T)

When one of your favorite books ever on this platform is deleted and then you cry about it for an hour. 
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          The increasing urge to kys 
          
          
          So relatable rn ;-;

Remember all our comments about how wattpad should let you like comments? 
          IT HAPPENED
          WE CAN ACTUALLY LIKE THE COMMENTS NOW
          WOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I'm craving something sweet but I'm too lazy to get up and walk like 1 room over for a cupcake ಥ_ಥ
           

I just tried to high pitch bad romance and got in trouble with my dad 
          I just like to scream at the top of my damn lungs

I love your background photo of Lumine! ❤️

Alright I think she forgot ‍
          
          I'm so lucky my mom has a shit memory otherwise I wouldn't be able to post this rn :P

SHITSHITSHIT OKAY I JUST RAN INTO MY MOM WHILE I WAS IN THE KITCHEN GETTING MORE WATER CUZ ALLERGIES AND MY THROATS FUCKING HURTS BUT NOW IN AFRAID SHE'S GONNA TAKE AWAY MY ELECTRONICS AGIN SHIIIIIITTTTT
          
          
          
          ALRIGHT IF YOU DON'T SEE ME IN 1-4 MONTHS THEN SHE TOOK THEM AWAY
          
          
          
          AND IF YOU DON'T SEE ME EVER AGAIN THEN I GAVE UP AND FINALLY COMMITTED UNDER THE STRAIN OF USUAL STRESS+NOT HAVING THE INTERNET/INTERNET FRIENDS/MUSIC TO KEEP ME SANE. GOODBYE. 
          
          
          
          
          
          Oh- and if she finds this account and everything on it then I don't even know what will happen. Maybe she'll take away everything forever, idk. 
          
          
          
          
          
          At this point I'm resigned to my fate. I probably only had a few years of perseverance left in me at this point anyway. Shortening that a little won't change anything really... 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          The real sad part is I'm not kidding about any of this.