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The fact I thought I was so close to getting over my crush until they suddenly touched my hand…
          My heart was racing inside and I was like,
          “Fuck not yet?! ”

The fact that my some of my friends decided to match pfp with each other..and I’m left out-
          That kinda hurts-

“Dirty little secret” Yuichiro x Senjuro, is now out.

:)
          
          Just wait, I’m almost done with Vol 1,

It may be 11:55 p.m but like I don’t give a fuck,
          Happy birthday Sanemi
          Eyebrowless bitch :)
          
          I drew him today, but ended up posting it on insta

Um, I knew I said I’ll be offline, but there was something I wanted to say,
          
          I felt so overwhelmed, and I knew it would be better to just say something rather than never and regret it even if it’s bad…
          
          I told my crush I liked em, and no surprise, they rejected me,
          However they said they liked me, just not in that way so, 
          
          I don’t know if they only rejected me because they aren’t into girls, or was there something wrong with me…
          
          I only knew they were gonna reject so it doesn’t hurt that bad, but still, they really did hurts to think about, “was it because I was a girl? Or did we just not know each other like I hoped so…”
          
          I don’t regret telling them though,
          Because I won’t regret it later when they do find someone, I’ll be okay though, 
          
          I just hope I don’t make everything awkward now….

hey, I don't really know what's going on but I'm trying to catch up, are you ok? I hope that everyone helped you feel better, I understand the type of house hold you're in, just try to stay strong, you only have four more years until you move out if I remember right. don't give up, try your best to steer away from negative thoughts. there's a app I have that I think will really help you with your self hate. its called flinch, its a self care app and will help you focus on yourself and mental state.

Hey guys, I just wanna say thank you,
          I’m really thankful for all the messages yall sended out and how I’m not alone in this situation, how I’m always gonna be loved no matter what. 
          
          I know self harm is not the answer, but I don’t know what was going on around that time. I had people I can talk outside of Wattpad and online in general, but I’m scared to be a burden to people, and if they will even understand but it’s not like I’ll ever know until I try to talk to them.
          
          In general, I’m not alone, no one is ever alone in this situation, there is always gonna be someone out there who can help you, and who knows maybe you have not even found them yet, but I know there is gonna be someone out there in general.
          
          I hardly feel any motivation to write at the moment,
          So for now I’m signing off,
          Not quitting btw,
          I just need time for myself and to work on my mental health. At least try to find someone outside of this screen,
          And get the help I need, though I’m scared to confess this to my caretaker, just am in general,
          
          Thank you guys for helping me through this journey, and for now, I’m going offline,
          Thank you,
          Your author,
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Hey um, so I didn’t know how to say things, and I was busy throughout the day yesterday…
          
          But I tried to..self harm…

I’m sorry….
          I’m really sorry….