~MADOKA~

excuse me but what is that location

I feel sad but sad and sad I might ask for therapy or possibly a psychiatrist soon.

Guyz it’s my birthday!! :3

It pains me when I see people react to a character getting hit by their parents and saying, “oh my gosh! That’s abuse..” because at a point I didn’t know it was, I got used to it and it hurts knowing now that having a gun pointed at you multiple times for existing or getting hit almost daily or getting guilt tripped into things isn’t normal and never was. Does anyone know what I should do as an underage minor? Is there any types of numbers I can call? I’m not safe and need somewhere.

I may continue the dandy’s world book soon but I can’t promise because I procrastinate a lot and I have built up the courage to maybe ask for therapy. I’m really struggling with mental health and it’s overwhelming and writing does help me escape from it BUT it can pressure me to be quicker etc. I do enjoy getting comments or encouragement to continue something but even if your trying to be nice, how you word it may depend if I see it more as a demand or pressure. Just a reminder even if I may not reply or something it doesn’t make me happier to see someone check in on me. I know it’s greedy but I want to be famous, not because I think I’m cut out or for the actual fame; I want to be famous so people will listen to me, hear me and possibly help me out, and I really enjoy knowing that people read my things and some stupid little joke I wrote someone laughed at, I was pulled out of public school halfway through last year because they threatened to add a crime to my record (I don’t really want to talk about it but it was THAT big of a deal). So I have been distanced and lonely for a while and nervous how people perceive me, it gave me too much time to myself and gave me more time to think on my mental health for the worst. Knowing you guys are here through some of attempts or just reading my vents or maybe just popping in to say hi, I hope you guys know you have stopped me from ending it or trying multiple times and even if I get older I won’t forget this community I was welcomed into. <33

It sickens me. They enjoy this? I’m scared. I’m like a glass vase, I have been shattered and broken over and over and over; yet every time they gather the shards and put me back together so they can get the enjoyment of breaking me again. If even one person were to comment or ask, “are you doing okay?” “Are you safe at home?” “Why are there bruises on you?” I would shatter. I scream and no one hears my plea. My eyes are getting tired. My skin getting paler. Every child is born with a certain type of gleam in their eyes, mine was striped away the moment I realized it wasn’t normal. I’m scared yet no one saves me. My birthday is coming up yet my one wish is that maybe, just MAYBE, someone will save me.

My birthday is the 18th :3

Anyone tryna recommend me an anime?? ^^

Anyone who sees this go give @Hatsuyuki404 a follow >:3

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