JAEROSIE

Hello. It's been a rough year. I lost my grandfather to terminal cancer today. 
          	
          	He used to curse a lot, but he always gave me money whenever he gets his pension. He doesn't like how I go out a lot after school but he'd still fetch me anyway. He loved sweets more than I do, so everytime I buy candy, I always have to hide the half portion away (to prevent him from getting diabetes).
          	
          	The thing is, he hid what he felt for a over a year. Before the pandemic, he's already been feeling stuff hence he secretly went to check ups for scans, etc. When quarantine was established, he grew weaker and weaker. We force him to go to check ups but he'd always refuse. 
          	
          	Until we were too late; and like cancer's not enough, he got stroke. The hospital wasn't taking care of him properly, hence he got a severe bed sore (that in which needed a surgery but we decided not to because it will only give him more pain). The doctor in charge is yet to be punished for the lack of assistance.
          	
          	And so we took him home from the hospital. We spent millions even though we know that he could leave us at any moment. And knowing my grandfather, if he could only speak (he couldn't any longer after the stroke), he'd curse us for spending too much. It's why he kept it a secret, because he didn't want to be a bother until his last dying breath.
          	
          	But the thing is, no amount of money can ever equal to the value of a loved one's life.
          	
          	When he left us, we didn't give a damn about the money we spent or the loan we have to pay. We were so grateful that even though it was short, we got to spend more time with him in his most vulnerable days. And he got to see us before leaving. I can't and don't want to imagine what it's going to be like if we had left him to die in the hospital. 
          	
          	I wish he's no longer in pain. I wish he's okay now.

aceluvrs

@JAEROSIE im so sorry for what happened. i hope you find peace. condolences to you and your family.
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geum_young95

Holla guyss, if you ✨JaeRose✨ enthusiast, go check this story. Maybe this is a cup of your tea, who knows? (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤ Stay happy, safe and healthy 
          
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JAEROSIE

Hello. It's been a rough year. I lost my grandfather to terminal cancer today. 
          
          He used to curse a lot, but he always gave me money whenever he gets his pension. He doesn't like how I go out a lot after school but he'd still fetch me anyway. He loved sweets more than I do, so everytime I buy candy, I always have to hide the half portion away (to prevent him from getting diabetes).
          
          The thing is, he hid what he felt for a over a year. Before the pandemic, he's already been feeling stuff hence he secretly went to check ups for scans, etc. When quarantine was established, he grew weaker and weaker. We force him to go to check ups but he'd always refuse. 
          
          Until we were too late; and like cancer's not enough, he got stroke. The hospital wasn't taking care of him properly, hence he got a severe bed sore (that in which needed a surgery but we decided not to because it will only give him more pain). The doctor in charge is yet to be punished for the lack of assistance.
          
          And so we took him home from the hospital. We spent millions even though we know that he could leave us at any moment. And knowing my grandfather, if he could only speak (he couldn't any longer after the stroke), he'd curse us for spending too much. It's why he kept it a secret, because he didn't want to be a bother until his last dying breath.
          
          But the thing is, no amount of money can ever equal to the value of a loved one's life.
          
          When he left us, we didn't give a damn about the money we spent or the loan we have to pay. We were so grateful that even though it was short, we got to spend more time with him in his most vulnerable days. And he got to see us before leaving. I can't and don't want to imagine what it's going to be like if we had left him to die in the hospital. 
          
          I wish he's no longer in pain. I wish he's okay now.

aceluvrs

@JAEROSIE im so sorry for what happened. i hope you find peace. condolences to you and your family.
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JAEROSIE

tenlisa besties!! their interaction makes me wanna do a story about the two of them being troublemakers in a toxic school but the love between them is purely platonic

ttyongbyoing

@JAEROSIE YES PLEASEEEE
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saraengs

@JAEROSIE do it, sis! ♡
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JAEROSIE

I want to post the new chapter of Speak for Jennie day, but I'm experiencing a writer's block.. AGAIN! I mean, I already planned out what's going to happen but my sentences are too bland for my taste, and my word choices are becoming excruciatingly redundant. And I don't want to post an half-assed chapter... *quietly cries in the corner*
          
          But anyway, it's Princess Jennie's birthday! I genuinely hope that she's enjoying her special day. ><

JAEROSIE

no one in particular is bashing me for shipping nctpink, but i feel like i need to get my thoughts out here. 
          
          first of all, i use nct and blackpink as characters to my story because 1.) they're both my bias groups in 3rd gen (rv too), 2.) their individual auras suit the personality i have for my characters. secondly; though i have no doubts of them being friends, i don't necessarily think they're dating. i know it's weird for some people, but lastly: if it isn't obvious yet, the reasons why i ship them are selfish. it's solely for my story ideas. i don't go around and comment on their igs to date each other- no, that's crossing the line. 
          
          rosie's my ult in blackpink, and jaehyun's a daydream prince of mine in nct127 (i'm generally a sunfllower). and about my jenyong stories, i don't feel like i ship them hard (since it's weird with kai and taeyong being friends and all). i just use them in stories because their natural it girl and it boy auras open up versatile character ideas for me. and because their godlike looks are similar to that of the story characters i have in mind. hehe.

dreamiecity

this!! exactly perfectly said
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JAEROSIE

i really can't write without coffee, but then i'm encouraged to avoid caffeine for a while- BUT THEN AGAIN, i really can't get any work done without coffee. and i feel sad when i can't write; much more sad than i am with having my health at risk. so in conclusion, i'm still getting my coffee.
          
          p.s this is the first time i have my face on my icon. i'm sorry if i ruined ur day, nevertheless have a nice holiday. :3