Today I realised how much I really trusted people...... Today I tried explaining to a great friend and now I feel like crap.......
I feel Crap these days because, I'm trying so hard to talk to people, but people always are two faced, Im not confident in talking to people, yeah now guess what everyone hates me...
I'm scared, I'm scared that people will gang up on me and I won't be able to stand up for myself because I'll have no one there for me....
I really don't know anymore, I just keep stuffing things up...
I don't know if she will talk to me ever again, I don't even know if I'm going to survive the rest of high school with these people...
I'm trying so hard to talk to these people and get there attention but no they don't care....
They probably haven't even realised that I'm not friends with them on Facebook or other social media....
All I want is to be treated like an equal, a friend, one that gets invited to social events and one that isn't always left out of the conversation or isn't there for the sake of being there....
I don't know, everyone hates me and no one cares they are all just selfish and evil.....
I used to be friends and now well looks like everyone else is best friends with each other except me, I have yet to find a friend that is my best friend and not anyone else's.......
I want to cry, I want to shout, I want to punch a wall......
I just want to be a person and not a ghost......
Is this too much to ask?