Jaylenthegoat101

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Jaylenthegoat101

I hate my dad I hate him

ily-ylm

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ily-ylm

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Jaylenthegoat101

I genuinely just realized that no one will ever love me because of my weight. I have all of my friends complaining to me that their "so fat" but I bet you they've never been crying so hard on the floor that they've passed out. I know that everybody struggles with their weight, even if there underweight or overweight but the way that they do it is like making fun of people overweight. It hurts me because ever since I was 6 years old I've hated the way I look. I started wearing makeup in the 5th grade to cover up my face and I started wearing baggy cloths when I was 7 so people couldn't see my body. I even asked my mom for help but she called me "Vain" and now I'm scared that i can never lose my fat because they all will notice the change and say I was "trying too hard" but I want to feel pretty. When I was 9 I looked up how to "starve myself". I was only 9 and I realized that I don't have any memories of me feeling confident in my own skin. I love people for their personality not looks, I like this guy and people call him "ugly" or "you have an interesting taste in men" but he's funny and kind and that's all I want. I want to be loved just for one day. I want happiness, I want to feel normal again, I haven't felt that way in so long. I don't feel like me anymore because of how fake I am and I don't even know what my favorite color is anymore because of all of this acting, and I'm scared that if I change I'll be judged and bullied for it

Jaylenthegoat101

@ily-ylm I know you mean well, I really know you mean it but... I can't love myself if I don't have a purpose to keep living and going on. But I'll try to take your advice bc it makes total sense and I love you too, I love you so much dude ♡
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ily-ylm

@Jaylenthegoat101 Hey, it's okay ml, okay? I need to lose weight myself so I understand... Don't think that okay? You need to love yourself (not saying you don't) before anyone else can love you for you, because how can anyone love YOU when you can't love yourself for being you? I love you, okay ml?
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